.Note 58.
Consuming the chocolate the other day had been a mistake. My secret desire is to be dominated? It's rubbish and blatantly untrue. The problem of it all is not my position in the matter - it's the fact that I asked for it; and curse of the chocolate or not, showing such vulnerability is completely inexcusable.
This is a game I cannot afford to lose, and showing weakness - false or otherwise - will prove to work against me if people find out. No one can be fully trusted here - or anywhere else, for that matter. Ryuk's lesson had proven to be enough for me to realize this. Even when things are going as well as they are, it will be stupid to assume that it always will be. It's impossible to stop moving, now that so many variables are thrown into the mix this time.
The best alternative right now is to forget that such a thing ever happened; harping on it would do no good as pleasurable as it had been or I will be no better than the Thunderwitch, who lives for pleasure. Such a thing's overrated, especially where ambition is concerned. I have no use for physical pleasures, as gratifying as they are sometimes; there are more things important things for me to do, more achievements I've yet to accomplish.
I am meant for much greater, grander things far above L and his cronies, and now is the time to prepare for it.
I extend a warm welcome to the new arrivals to the City, I hope this and this will serve to assist you in a place like this.
Father Nightroad, Lady Lilith, it was a pleasure having your company and showing you around today; I hope that despite the circumstances, it was interesting.
Mr Morningstar, my sincere thanks for being such a gracious host the other night, it was an enjoyable evening.
Wolfwood Father Wolfwood, please try not to keep hitting people in the head with that confessional booth of yours? You'll probably find that talking to them will be enough.
This is a game I cannot afford to lose, and showing weakness - false or otherwise - will prove to work against me if people find out. No one can be fully trusted here - or anywhere else, for that matter. Ryuk's lesson had proven to be enough for me to realize this. Even when things are going as well as they are, it will be stupid to assume that it always will be. It's impossible to stop moving, now that so many variables are thrown into the mix this time.
The best alternative right now is to forget that such a thing ever happened; harping on it would do no good as pleasurable as it had been or I will be no better than the Thunderwitch, who lives for pleasure. Such a thing's overrated, especially where ambition is concerned. I have no use for physical pleasures, as gratifying as they are sometimes; there are more things important things for me to do, more achievements I've yet to accomplish.
I am meant for much greater, grander things far above L and his cronies, and now is the time to prepare for it.
I extend a warm welcome to the new arrivals to the City, I hope this and this will serve to assist you in a place like this.
Father Nightroad, Lady Lilith, it was a pleasure having your company and showing you around today; I hope that despite the circumstances, it was interesting.
Mr Morningstar, my sincere thanks for being such a gracious host the other night, it was an enjoyable evening.
Wolfwood Father Wolfwood, please try not to keep hitting people in the head with that confessional booth of yours? You'll probably find that talking to them will be enough.