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[onetoastylady]

"If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

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Re: What if we never speak anymore?

[onetoastylady]

Yeah, and I shouldn't have been seeing you at all at that time, seeing how we wanted basically completely different things, as far as I know. And I blocked out most of what was said the last time we "talked" at evergreen because, although you seemed sincere, in the end I recall you saying hurtful things to me about how your sister didn't want to talk to me anymore, and I'm pretty sure you did that because you somehow think you need to feel bigger than me. One of the last times I saw you, my boyfriend and I happened to be having a fight, and just because we walked by your house (unintentionally, it's not like I knew where you lived), you seemed to think that was an invitation to come out of fucking NO WHERE and interrogate me...and I didn't appreciate that.

So honestly, James, I don't know if I can talk to you anytime soon, until you can fucking figure out your shit. I don't know why I tried to help you so many times when you wouldn't listen to me, when you shoved me away, pushed me back and pulled me in so many times, I'm still stressed out because of all the shit that happened, all the nights I was alone, crying over you...whatever happened to going to Hawaii? I'm sure you wouldn't "approve" of how I'm living my life nowdays anyway, so why do you even want to be my friend, huh? WHY? You took me for granted for almost two years, I'm sorry but, I don't see us being best buddies anytime soon. Sure, I made mistakes, too, I was paranoid, I kissed a couple guys, and to this day I feel sorry for that, I feel sorry not only that I kissed them, but that I continued to see you in spite of the fact that you didn't want to work on your shit enough to keep a relationship with me, I should have seen that red sign long before it burned me in the ass...

I expect nothing, but if you're going to reply, don't type it on here, email me, I hate this thing and only use it occasionally.