wasting time as i waste away
i should be studying right now, but instead i'm depressed because matt's being an asshole and insisted on walking away from me without saying goodbye, assuming that i'd either go to him in the computer center or be at class. well, i could have decided to not show up at either place and just find a random couch to sit down on and study, but instead i decided to show up at the computer center...except i don't really see a reason to say a fucking word to him, and apparently the same goes for him. i'm just not cruel enough to have left on the 8:30 bus alone, which would have left him wondering where i was. plus i'm too much of a wussy to ride the bus home alone. well, FUCK this. FUCK this.
in case all of you are wondering what the hell my problem is,
a) i'm fucking broke, oh, and, by the way, my parents are going to france on vacation in may.
b) i don't have a job and rent is due march 1st
c) i'm probably ineligible for unemployment funds, and even if i were eligible, i need the money a.s.a.p., and i probably wouldn't get enough for rent anyway through unemployment
d) people generally suck and don't understand me
e) i wasted a bunch of time today at this place downtown called "remedy" where they supposedly offer "great" employment opportunities...but on the quiz they ask you about 500 times whether or not you smoke pot. i prefer being honest, so i answered yes to some of those questions, therefore i was "disqualified" said the red haired bitch as she gave me a look of "did you really think we'd find a job for trash like you?"
and now, before i say anything else positive, FUCK off and die.
in case all of you are wondering what the hell my problem is,
a) i'm fucking broke, oh, and, by the way, my parents are going to france on vacation in may.
b) i don't have a job and rent is due march 1st
c) i'm probably ineligible for unemployment funds, and even if i were eligible, i need the money a.s.a.p., and i probably wouldn't get enough for rent anyway through unemployment
d) people generally suck and don't understand me
e) i wasted a bunch of time today at this place downtown called "remedy" where they supposedly offer "great" employment opportunities...but on the quiz they ask you about 500 times whether or not you smoke pot. i prefer being honest, so i answered yes to some of those questions, therefore i was "disqualified" said the red haired bitch as she gave me a look of "did you really think we'd find a job for trash like you?"
and now, before i say anything else positive, FUCK off and die.