"So take me, and break me, and make me strong, like you.."
i don't even know where to start everything has happened so fast. Last nite, they readmitted my mom into the hospital for the whole cancer thing, or was it the other nite? either way i can't recall.. this afternoon a little while after my aunt was on her way home from visiting my mother at mather hospital and work, some drunk driver rammed into the back of her car sending her flying. As of currently she is in Mather hospital too, which means its really just my cousin and i. leaving me to care for her and deal with all this other shit. Finding out a few days ago about my moms whole "cancer" or what they think is, scared me, because..well. because... and now my aunts gone, and yeah i admit, neither are very nice to me, but i don't no how to handle things, and myself, let alone my cousin and what not alone. So i uped the days i'm working. so far i don't get paid til wed. and we have no money for food or anything, and it's really quite hectic. i'm a mess. i need a shower, i have shit around the house i need to do, i haven't enough time to do homework and at the rate things are going i may need to drop out of high school and take a full time job to barely get by for everybody. and i haven't really talked to anybody about it because i figure i don't want to bother anyone else with my issues. i need to take responsibility and do it myself. plus, noone really wants to talk. its like i hardly have firend,s i haven't actually sat down and had a somewhat meanignful converstaion in awhile. and i have a feeling it wont be happening anytime soon. so as of right now, i'm trying to stayin school and handle things, and hopefully everything will be ok. i just.. i don't know what to think anymore.. i don't no how to handle this type of things anymore. ugh..