still
it hurts, life hurts.. there's always something in my head.. a constant distraction that never stops, and never stays the same. sometimes it's not even my problem, but it becomes my pain. i had to go through things i thought only someone like me would go through, and it hurt. it hurts to see younger people go through the same feeling of hopelessness and lonelyness and frustration with the point of life their at.
Be still and know that I am God
i'm so self conscious too, with one of the lowest esteems. no matter how many people i tell this to.. no one seems to understand. all they see is the confidence that emits from my posture. they see my ability to go in front of many people with a testimony. But it's all God given, honestly i can't go through any of this alone. every mirror i glance at seems to be the most unflattering of all, causing me to turn in a differnt direction. i'm constantly looking down at the numbers by my feet and stepping off the scale in disgust. i look at the scars on my arm and even from that i question my sanity. i don't fit anywhere.. i'm not a "punk" i'm not "emo" i'm not "gangster" i'm not "goth" i'm not "popular" i don't belong in a group.. people tell me different, they tell me that i'm looked up to. and it's flattering sometimes, but i still feel so alone. don't tell me i'm beautiful, i've heard it before.. i need to see it.
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
sometimes it doesn't even seem like you're there. where were you protecting me when i made other committments, when they came back to take me. when i'm alone, when there's no one around. when i bled, where were you. you could've stopped it. you couldn've stopped me. WHY?
I the Lord am close to the broken hearted, and i save those who are crushed in spirit. i will take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth
what's going to happen in the future. how can you possibly use me in a way i want to be used? i want to change the world, i want to make a difference here. i want to be the voice that sparks the revolution. but i can't be, i'm too small. too insignificant to ever make such a difference. what about my friends, i love them Lord, they're dear to me. what happens in the future, i know our paths are not parellel. i don't ever want to lose them.
i have plans for you, i can do more for you than you could possibly imagine
why?
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. everything. I'm waiting for you. I love you, you're beautiful.. your works are in my plan. you will not change the world, but I will. Trust me. I love you. Be still and know that I am God
and my head stopped spinning.
Be still and know that I am God
i'm so self conscious too, with one of the lowest esteems. no matter how many people i tell this to.. no one seems to understand. all they see is the confidence that emits from my posture. they see my ability to go in front of many people with a testimony. But it's all God given, honestly i can't go through any of this alone. every mirror i glance at seems to be the most unflattering of all, causing me to turn in a differnt direction. i'm constantly looking down at the numbers by my feet and stepping off the scale in disgust. i look at the scars on my arm and even from that i question my sanity. i don't fit anywhere.. i'm not a "punk" i'm not "emo" i'm not "gangster" i'm not "goth" i'm not "popular" i don't belong in a group.. people tell me different, they tell me that i'm looked up to. and it's flattering sometimes, but i still feel so alone. don't tell me i'm beautiful, i've heard it before.. i need to see it.
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
sometimes it doesn't even seem like you're there. where were you protecting me when i made other committments, when they came back to take me. when i'm alone, when there's no one around. when i bled, where were you. you could've stopped it. you couldn've stopped me. WHY?
I the Lord am close to the broken hearted, and i save those who are crushed in spirit. i will take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth
what's going to happen in the future. how can you possibly use me in a way i want to be used? i want to change the world, i want to make a difference here. i want to be the voice that sparks the revolution. but i can't be, i'm too small. too insignificant to ever make such a difference. what about my friends, i love them Lord, they're dear to me. what happens in the future, i know our paths are not parellel. i don't ever want to lose them.
i have plans for you, i can do more for you than you could possibly imagine
why?
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. everything. I'm waiting for you. I love you, you're beautiful.. your works are in my plan. you will not change the world, but I will. Trust me. I love you. Be still and know that I am God
and my head stopped spinning.