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Fuck you. I was getting better. But then you always say one thing, just one, that makes me feel so horrible i could die. And it's always one thing that resonates in my mind for a while so i get distracted and depressed. You've been this way since i met you, and i really don't like that part about your personality. You don't watch what you say, or maybe you just don't care that what you say does affect other people. I think you just don't care, i really do, you're too wrapped up in you. I'm just pissed right now, just leave me alone for now, i mean casual hellos and how are yous are ok but in depth conversations aren't ok with me especally when it involves the guy you love. I don't care and it hurts more that anything when you mention it. I was honest and i was into it, you weren't ready and i wish you just would have realized that before we got into it. You fucked with my feelings and no matter how much you want us to be good friends i wont be able to be comfortable around you again. I wont. I feel like a fool and you aren't helping. I hate to say that i don't care but... i just don't, so don't tell me anymore shit. I almost have repressed anger towards you and i don't want that to come out at you because i'm a nice person. No, fuck it, honestly, i am angry at you and i want to be distanced from you and i see you in a whole new unpleasant light.
*sigh*
there's more to say, i just can't think of it. Just... AHH.
Haha... the sad part is the only reason i'm writing this i because i know you couldn't care less and even if you knew you wouldn't care.
*sigh*
there's more to say, i just can't think of it. Just... AHH.
Haha... the sad part is the only reason i'm writing this i because i know you couldn't care less and even if you knew you wouldn't care.