what the eff?

[oneslifelost]

*sigh* The school year is coming to an end soon and I am pissed. Sometimes I wish I was 17 again and life was fun...or at least most of the time. Being an adult sucks majorly. Now that I'm graduating I've come to the unfortunate conclusion that I don't really know what I want to do for my career anymore. And I'm upset that I didn't use my A+ scholarship to get a decent degree. I will graduate May 13th with an Associates of Arts degree. Besides having my electives out of the way, tell me, what the fuck is that good for? I should've gone for an Associates of Music at least then I would be wise on something. Fuck. There is a list of things I want to try and do. I just attempted to apply somewhere close and it's gonna cost me over $28,000 just to get a Pre-Vet Tech degree! I can't even figure out how these loans work and what I do know about them I don't like. Why does it have to be so fucking expensive to go to school? Does our government NOT want smart people? I don't want them to own me if I get a loan. UGGH! What am I supposed to do now? I'm running out of time.

Ideas for careers:
*Teacher of some sort most likely music or history.
*Specified doctor; preferable gynocologist or urologist, opthamologist(I know, that's weird).
*Music performance or music education
*Acting
*Environmental Sciences
*International Relations (I'm surprisingly good in this field).
*Animal Science (Zoology)
*Cytotechnology/Botany/or Biotechnology
*Music Business (I want to open a venue nearby, kind of like Pop's)

Now, I must go. I have physical therapy (which is getting boring but helping I guess), then work at 5. I think I did crappy on my IR test and I have a big test tomorrow. Someone come take me away or surprise me.

-Melissa

...I hate death and destruction.