I love you??
Well.... began writing in my real journal again for the first time in several months. Putting down on paper things that have been bothering me lately and memorable dreams that really stick out. I can't really tell what they mean yet, i don't even know if i ever will, but they definatly are generating interesting thoughts while i am awake. Just now, i was smoking on the stoop of my apartment and i was wondering when a certain three words would ever escape my lips again. It stopped me cold in everything i was thinking and has preoccupied all thoughts since then. How long will it be till i say that to another and mean it in the context that i have grown so attached and so happy to when saying it? The thing is i know i will say it, it is just a matter of when, but the longing makes me wonder about aspects of what the circumstances could possibly be. I know that i will say it when i mean it, but vulnerability is something that cannot be underestimated. For now it just leaves things uncertain.
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