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sometimes i don't know what to think... what to feel... how to deal... maybe its okay to ride blind into the night sometimes. i can't say its always the most secure feeling, but sometimes its hard to see anything but whats right in front of you. nothing quite hurts like everything all at once. i am nothing. i am everything. maybe my pain and my persistance to see it through is where a lot of the inspiration comes from, maybe its my excuse to sludge through the painful waters.
i'm lonely tonight. first night in a long time that i actually feel alone. i had a few different things i could have done tonight. in fact i was invited to do a few things with a few people. instead i'm sitting here, beat up and tired. i almost had a really bad fall today down a cliff. luckly someone was there to grab my arm, and i'm only a little cut up and sore. i'm sitting here, waiting to feel alive again. maybe it won't happen again today, maybe tomorrow.
i'm lonely tonight. first night in a long time that i actually feel alone. i had a few different things i could have done tonight. in fact i was invited to do a few things with a few people. instead i'm sitting here, beat up and tired. i almost had a really bad fall today down a cliff. luckly someone was there to grab my arm, and i'm only a little cut up and sore. i'm sitting here, waiting to feel alive again. maybe it won't happen again today, maybe tomorrow.