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[onesexypepito]

some stupid thing inside me keeps hoping at the last second you'll tell me you were testing me or something
idiot idea i know
dreams are hard right now because they're not real
i'm exhausted
but i don't want to sleep
cause i don't want to wake up from that again
lol you know i used to be eloquent
i used to be wise
now i just feel clumsy and blind
i feel like i'm clinging on the bottom of average
about to vanish into the crowd
not really the special thing anymore
just that thing in the back
the thing thats there
and hey maybe it'll be cool again one day
but for now its just in the back
hidden from view
hidden so your heart can't see me
so i'll go away now
but then your heart won't even hear me
and maybe, you'll have a hole to match mine
but you can busy your time to try to find
the puzzle piece that matches
and if you try hard enough
you can redefine the hole
to fit the new model
and if you do i won't be doing the same
i'll be cutting myself to fit another piece somewhere
changing my shape to find another one to fit

just babbling now, in one of those moods don't pay to much attention to the man behind the curtain, i'll put the smile back on now