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[onesexypepito]

Ok, this is what I want
I'm not going back
Take the punches on the way
Bow my head and take the beating
I got DandC 121 and prayer and I can get through this
Although I wont lie the self confidence might reach an all time low

I'm trusting you now though
No one will ever love you like I do
And I'm holding my heart out there
right out in front of me
as an offer
please don't hurt it too much on the way

Don't get lost in taking chances
Trying to find
That's how I found regret
Trying to find exactly what I had
What no one else could be

And so here I am now
after taking my chances
wishing I hadn't
stuck watching what I want go after something else
but it's my fault
and i can only try to undo
maybe i'll get there one day
or maybe i'll lose her on the way

oh it keeps me up at night
as i chant in my head "don't think about it don't think about it don't think about it don't think about it don't think about it"
but always coming back to it
lips
that used to look for mine only
eyes that used to find mine only
it's not like that anymore
and it's my fault
and i can't undo

but this is what i want

what i've always wanted

what i always will

you

just you

no other eyes or smile or hands or lips

ever again

just you

sigh