big update. only read if you really want to know
so here is my update, my life ya it could be better a lot things happening some of which i don't want to talk about. Yall know jason adn i broke up yeah thats old news we are just friends now. I still want somemore but im not gonna push that issue cuz i think that will just push him away completly. Soccer isn't going as good as i want it to. I push my self as hard as i can cuz i really want to play this year. And i feel like no matter how hard i try i am never gonna be able to. I am the backup goalie and no matter how much the number one goalie screws up i sit the bench. there was one game where he had me be ball girl at home. Which right there told me that i am not gonna play. Which makes me so fastrated i really am thinking about quiting. Heck i decided to play softball to make myself better with hand eye cordtation for soccer so i can just switch if i have to. Im not loving the sport anymore. with everything else that is going on its just making more stressed and sick. I am just getting over strep throat or however you spell it. You ask what is stressing me. Jason, soccer, my parents have to find another place to live, school, work, lossing touch with all my friends. Im on my space adn i changed my name to failure i got a couple of comments to change it so i changed it to catasway cuz right now thats what i feel like. Man things better start looking up. Im sick of all this shit.