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I just had a friend get engaged. I'm intensely happy for him and I think they're going to be really happy and that makes me happy. This post actually isn't about him at all, or her, or the fact they just got engaged. This post is about the fact that they just got engaged and are happy together and love one another and I'm still with a man who, after 3 1/2 years, still maintains that he doesn't love me. He supports me in everything I do, he's encouraging, he believes in me, he helps me when I need help, we talk, we laugh, we get along amazingly well, he cares about me, his actions say he loves me, his words say otherwise. He's shown more love than any of the men who've professed their love and then tore me down or didn't back it up in any way. I'm glad that he's supportive and his actions show he cares, but every once in a while it hits me that I will probably never hear him say those words to me. That what we have at this moment in time is probably all we will ever have. It will never be more than this. Hell...I don't know if we'll even ever live in the same state again.
I just...I love him and it's one-sided and today that really really sucks.
I just...I love him and it's one-sided and today that really really sucks.