[013 ☿] Even if the two of us are ever torn apart, I swear that I will change the world.
The forest is quiet, and green. A cloaked man heads towards an altar in a clearing, already laid out with candles and, crosswise, his sword in its sheath. He takes a deep, cleansing breath, and picks it up
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First of all, she was not worth staying for, living for - again. Second, she is incapable of making her feelings reach someone now (and why had she wasted it on saving Tsukino Usagi, another pair of deaf ears her voice can't reach, when she was still capable?)
And she really only has one answer, one thing to hold to and remember, whether this, too, is good or ill:]
He, from the start, intended for me to live.
[Even if he hadn't kept that promise to help her if her future turned as dangerous as he knew it could, they had both kept the promise to change their worlds. They had kept the promise to be united in their common goals. And he had prepared her for the idea of living one once he left.
She isn't sure if planning for her to live was kindness, or denying her the chance to lay down the burdens as he'd finally been freed from his.]
And, after we both escaped that place, we met in a place between worlds.
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Usagi's legs are starting to fall asleep, but the only kind of movement to show her discomfort is her tucking her skirt under the bend of her knees and then settling back down to that kneeling position. ]
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A girl she spent even longer hating than she's spent mourning this man buried here, but a girl who might - just might - be different and who's made her question those memories all over again, slowly but undeniably, who's cracked the ice of that willful refusal to look at them because Mercury chose which to believe.]
All that time, his world had already gone further than mine.
[She turns away now, looking down at Usagi from the advantage of her standing height.]
And in Econtra, I learned what was coming to them both. That was our decision to change it absolutely.
[He'd told her plainly: She had the better chance, an earlier start, the opportunity to prevent so much more and end it so much earlier. So she had.]
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Because that's what she's let sink in has happened -- the future was changed since it wasn't to their liking. She doesn't judge though. It would be hypocritical of her if she did.
And finally, for the first time since stepping onto the mourning site, Usagi speaks in a very soft tone. ]
And you did.
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It's her first reasons that might have been wrong - if that matters anymore, when it's already done now.]
I did. I was at his side until then.
[He'd promised her that much, at least, and kept it; that he would be there until her world was settled.]
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Even if she doesn't, that's her prerogative. Usagi's just here to listen as she does if it will help make the other girl feel better. ]
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He disappeared three years ago. [The euphemism is so much easier to say. What she doesn't say, still, is that she simply hadn't been enough to change his mind.]
He probably felt there was nothing to remain for once his goals were achieved. [Vengeance and self-given duty achieved, what was there? Except for a girl who'd come to look to him for advice and even help.]
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Why would he do something like that? How could he do that to her?
Her fists clench in her lap and she has to look at something.. anything else so she can keep herself from being too angry at what she's hearing. ]
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It's getting her heart to match up to her head that's never been as easy as she wishes it was. It's Usagi's anger that surprises her. Mercury gives the other girl an almost uncertain look. Anger on her behalf?]
He had a will that didn't back down for anything. That's all.
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But, it's moot point to be angry now. Usagi takes a very deep but silent breath before exhaling. It doesn't seem to do much, but it's enough to keep the anger from taking over her voice. She still has to say it though. No matter how rational she needs to be, it's still her opinion. ]
That's still not fair.
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Of course it's not fair.
The words burst out of her before she can stop them - something she hates in herself. They're quick, angry, taut with frustration and more than that, tight with a pain she tries not to show.]
I live this way!
[It's not fair at all. And yet she's inside it, trapped, caught.]
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[ And finally, Usagi stands from the gravesite, giving it one last look before she turns her head to stare at the Dark senshi. It's frustrating on her end -- she doesn't want to see her like this. But, she's not exactly sure what she could say that wouldn't be brushed off as just another empty speech. So, in true Usagi fashion, she blurts out the first thing she can possibly come up with. ]
We should do something different.
[ Something not defined by the past. Not defined by the people who aren't here even if for just a dream. They've paid their respects. It's time to move on. ]
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I already know I can't stay here forever.
[It's an assertion that she isn't letting whatever feelings may be in this place hold sway; and her own purpose to leave.]
I'm returning to Mariner Castle. [She doesn't quite look beside her to see if Usagi intends to join her. But even announcing it is at least half an invitation.]
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Her mouth opens.. shuts.. and then she nods with a small little smile. ]
How long will it take to get there?
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Like this, it won't take long at all. It's within this solar system. [She tilts back her head, and her eyes are fixed on the sky.]
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When it fades away, Eternal Sailor Moon is left standing there, pure white wings stretching out completely leaving a few white feathers as she shakes them out. Once she's sure that everything is in working order, Moon follows Mercury's gaze up to the sky curiously. ]
Well, I'm ready whenever you are!
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