Gambling kills.
Been thinking about what Karhong said today about me, about being a compulsive gambler.
I wasn't really thinking too much into it just now but when I broke my $50, that's when all the thoughts started to flood in.
Last time I wouldn't even bet 50cents in a single go, but now I just heck it and play. And this kinda troubles me now.
My blackjack luck sucks ever since I started playing it. I knew this since I was like, really young (cant really rmb the age lol)
That's why I would avoid playing blackjack. At the most I'll just throw in 20cents and if I win, I continue. And if I lose my base?
Don't play liao lor.
But yesterday I had this feeling to just continue playing. I wanted so much to clear my 'debt' on the table and quit it.
But everytime when I'm so close to accomplishing that, I start losing again.
Then my mind will go like, "okay nvm, just try again. I'll prolly get on track again during the next turn what. Just continue."
Then this cycle repeats, and it gets worst.
Mahjong's different.
I like mahjong. Gotta think what to throw next and what tiles the other players want. The thrill gets me everytime when I play mahjong.
My mood changes with my base while playing mahjong too, Partner knows that too well haha.
Happy when I win, frustrated when I start losing.
But I always know I would recoup my losses at a certain point in the game so I'm usually not that worried.
But during blackjack today, it was a totally different thing.
Luckily I won abit of profit the night before, if not I'll be rolling on the floor, then hit myself haha!
I gotta change, to stop being like an idiot.
I'll just watch them play next time yes yes hahaha!
I wasn't really thinking too much into it just now but when I broke my $50, that's when all the thoughts started to flood in.
Last time I wouldn't even bet 50cents in a single go, but now I just heck it and play. And this kinda troubles me now.
My blackjack luck sucks ever since I started playing it. I knew this since I was like, really young (cant really rmb the age lol)
That's why I would avoid playing blackjack. At the most I'll just throw in 20cents and if I win, I continue. And if I lose my base?
Don't play liao lor.
But yesterday I had this feeling to just continue playing. I wanted so much to clear my 'debt' on the table and quit it.
But everytime when I'm so close to accomplishing that, I start losing again.
Then my mind will go like, "okay nvm, just try again. I'll prolly get on track again during the next turn what. Just continue."
Then this cycle repeats, and it gets worst.
Mahjong's different.
I like mahjong. Gotta think what to throw next and what tiles the other players want. The thrill gets me everytime when I play mahjong.
My mood changes with my base while playing mahjong too, Partner knows that too well haha.
Happy when I win, frustrated when I start losing.
But I always know I would recoup my losses at a certain point in the game so I'm usually not that worried.
But during blackjack today, it was a totally different thing.
Luckily I won abit of profit the night before, if not I'll be rolling on the floor, then hit myself haha!
I gotta change, to stop being like an idiot.
I'll just watch them play next time yes yes hahaha!