i give up on life

Apr 02, 2005 19:54

im not wanting brandon out of my life yes i lied but wat am i suppose to do i dont know ne more we used to be good friends love ruins everything i deff. hate it right about now bc maybe i nv did love him it was jus a phase me and him both went through "LOVE" such a hurtful word in so many ways he wouldnt even listen to me he blocked me bc i said i wanted him out of my life and i know i was kidding myself bc hes one great friend ive nv had and now i really dont have him period i wish i could take back time and if he even reads this he'll laugh because he'll think im selfish and concieded and this that ive typed is a big joke but its not and i know when i have to be serious and im flippin serious right now i dont want him to think worse of me me and kait are friends good friends and he doesnt think its true but i wouldnt talk to her if i didnt like her bc thats jus dumb and well he wont even believe wat i say if kait says it and b4 when we fought he said he was being immature about it well now he cussed me out and everything idk if i hurt him but hes deff not gonna let me apologize or let me talk to him again err i hate this almost a year ive known him and ive had more fights with him then nebody im so upset idk how i could do this i jus give up try to forget about him since im out of his life so i guess im moving on delete everything he ever said to me in the past and move to KY to make something of it but it would be better if we could drop everyting make a clean slate and go from there but thats not happening nothings ever gonna change the past bc something did happen i jus have to move on as he says
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