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well so far my day hasnt gone so good.... i went to skoo blah blah blah then my dad went to pick me up from lunch so i could tell my mom gOoD~ByE but no dice.... she tells us that her plane takes off at 2 we get there at 1 30 n she wasnt there anymroe i wanted to cry i felt so bad not makein it on time to see her n give her one last big huge... not many ppl understand how it is to be soo close to someone n they up n leave u .... i love my mom TO DEATH!! my good friends kno how hard it was for me to accept the fact that she was gone... even tho i talked to her on the fone all the time it wasnt the same... she wasnt there at hoem waitin for me to tell her things eatin her gross food... yellin at her for stupid things... gettin in trouble... gettin emotional w each other...urgh i miss her so much already!! i didnt want to see her i didnt want to see her again cuz i knew this was goin to happen... i was goin to get attached once agian... n my beautiful lil sister... she was THE FUCKEN BEST! <3 but once i again there is a whole in my heart. but its gotten smaller the longer shes been gone... dont u thikn its weird how human beins are?? TIME HEALS EVERYTHING! its the fucken truth i mean somthings takee awhile but still the pain goes away it took me a 1 1/2 years to gt over my mom not bein by my side but yet i got over it.... i mean i sitll care for her but shes a different person now... shes not the same mom that left me n my brother..but shes still there once in awhile<3! i had good times while she visited it jsut want long enough i was hoping she would see how much she missed it over here n how many ppl cared about her but i tihnk my grandma had to ruin that... she stresses out my mom so much its not even funny talk about a bug.a.boo!! but yeah anyways srry about all this! blah shit !!

i love u guys

P.S. APRIL FOOLS DAY SUCKED! no foolin me!!! muahhahaha