ok ok ok
yeah so i decided that i really do like using this thing as an outlet and should probably start using it again at my earliest convience...
ok so this isn't really convienent, i'm right in the middle of my finals week. 1 exam down 2 more and a 15 pg paper to go. not too bad. i've had worse for sure. i really hope i get the grades i aimed for. i had VERY high expectations for myself this semester. we'll see...
all in all things have been...okay. some good,some bad. pretty normal i suppose. at times i wonder if my reoccuring disappointment is my own fault. my standards are just as high for myself as they are for others. isn't that fair?
i want to constantly be striving to be a better person and in the process inspire others to do the same. i fail. over and over and over again. i just can't get people to care anymore. this was something that was formerly a talent of mine. i don't understand what has changed. i feel like i'm not getting through to ANYONE anymore...
i don't get it. perhaps i never will. but if i can't inspire those closest to me, how will i inspire anyone else? my lofty and seemingly unrealistic goal has always been to change the world. for as long as i can remember. my ultimate concern is that even though that goal seems unreachable, my hopes of even accomplishing it on a smaller scale will seem equally as unreachable if i can't impact people anymore. what will i do then?
i'm going to be graduating soon. Fall seems to be getting closer and closer. i'm going to have to make a lot of big decisions. i need my confidence. i have to figure this out.
i'll have to stop for now. lots of housework and studying to be done.
...and my puppy,Toby is doing the "potty dance".
-K.
ok so this isn't really convienent, i'm right in the middle of my finals week. 1 exam down 2 more and a 15 pg paper to go. not too bad. i've had worse for sure. i really hope i get the grades i aimed for. i had VERY high expectations for myself this semester. we'll see...
all in all things have been...okay. some good,some bad. pretty normal i suppose. at times i wonder if my reoccuring disappointment is my own fault. my standards are just as high for myself as they are for others. isn't that fair?
i want to constantly be striving to be a better person and in the process inspire others to do the same. i fail. over and over and over again. i just can't get people to care anymore. this was something that was formerly a talent of mine. i don't understand what has changed. i feel like i'm not getting through to ANYONE anymore...
i don't get it. perhaps i never will. but if i can't inspire those closest to me, how will i inspire anyone else? my lofty and seemingly unrealistic goal has always been to change the world. for as long as i can remember. my ultimate concern is that even though that goal seems unreachable, my hopes of even accomplishing it on a smaller scale will seem equally as unreachable if i can't impact people anymore. what will i do then?
i'm going to be graduating soon. Fall seems to be getting closer and closer. i'm going to have to make a lot of big decisions. i need my confidence. i have to figure this out.
i'll have to stop for now. lots of housework and studying to be done.
...and my puppy,Toby is doing the "potty dance".
-K.