The Subtle Balance of Sacrifice and Happiness

[onemoreblackday]

 Well shit. I'm stuck. Because i never have enough freaking time in my day to just do stuff. I'm frustrated as hell, because i want to go places all the time, and i can't. And i want to just be able to have my alone time where i play video games and use the internet, and release all my stress built up by human contact. And i also want to talk to people and such things. Well, i feel trapped... Because the balance is getting fucked out of its cycle, partially because i sleep until 1, yes, but since that is necessary for me to get a decent amount of sleep, that part's not going to change. I feel like so many people want to talk to me or hang with me all the time, that i don't have time to just chill by myself anymore, which is ovewhelming. BUT, i don't want to seem like i'm blowing off all my friends when i'm just stressed and want some me time. Because i'm pretty sure some of my friends are starting to think that i'm blowing them off >< which i really don't want to happen. I really need to find a way to acheive a balance, so sometimes i give up my alone time for my friends, and sometimes i reserve some time absolutely for me to chill alone. And still not be unhappy with it. I don't want to hurt anyone or upset anyone, but i don't want to hurt or upset myself by stressing myself out ><
ARGH!!!
why do catch 22s follow me everywhere like a pack of deranged vultures?