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mono is still kicking my ass. it feels like everyday is just the same, no progress.
*sigh* anyway, still out of work; sucks. i called the HR too withdraw money from my 401K, and she basicly told me i couldn't. funny, since its my money that i deposit, so that is another aggravation. i'm stressed about paying my rent, and bills. but once i get this money everything will be paid off, and i'll finally get caught up.
chris texted me today.....random! asked me if i was made at him, and if i wanted to hang out again. i said sure, since i do want to be friends with him. than he asked me if i had a bf yet, and asked if i ever wanted to hook up. OKAY! this is athe kid that didn't want to date anymore since his ex gf told him it bothered her that we where dating, well that was lie, and than he told me he might move to europe, and that he's not looking for something serious anyway. okay buddy, two weeks after we broke up, you had a gf. i guess i wasn't good enough, and that is just how i feel with every guy. i feel like i can never look good enough, my hair is never perfect, my body, anything. and than for him to ask if we can still hook up, wtf is up with that shit. i'm not a rag doll, nor do i want to become one. i just need a nice guy FRIEND that i can vent too, and i had that with jason. we went to the movies, out to eat and we could still talk to each other about our issues. i truely miss him, i don't know what happened, but i think i'm going to call or text him. i guess i should call him, that would be better.
i thought i had alot more to vent, but i guess i don't. just upset with chris....blah to guys.
*sigh* anyway, still out of work; sucks. i called the HR too withdraw money from my 401K, and she basicly told me i couldn't. funny, since its my money that i deposit, so that is another aggravation. i'm stressed about paying my rent, and bills. but once i get this money everything will be paid off, and i'll finally get caught up.
chris texted me today.....random! asked me if i was made at him, and if i wanted to hang out again. i said sure, since i do want to be friends with him. than he asked me if i had a bf yet, and asked if i ever wanted to hook up. OKAY! this is athe kid that didn't want to date anymore since his ex gf told him it bothered her that we where dating, well that was lie, and than he told me he might move to europe, and that he's not looking for something serious anyway. okay buddy, two weeks after we broke up, you had a gf. i guess i wasn't good enough, and that is just how i feel with every guy. i feel like i can never look good enough, my hair is never perfect, my body, anything. and than for him to ask if we can still hook up, wtf is up with that shit. i'm not a rag doll, nor do i want to become one. i just need a nice guy FRIEND that i can vent too, and i had that with jason. we went to the movies, out to eat and we could still talk to each other about our issues. i truely miss him, i don't know what happened, but i think i'm going to call or text him. i guess i should call him, that would be better.
i thought i had alot more to vent, but i guess i don't. just upset with chris....blah to guys.