There isn't a ****ng thing I can do it about- I can't even deal.

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I can't go much longer... I'm tired and beat. the one thing that was keeping me going is here now, so I need to refocus on something else. I'm weak and my sense of humor is almost nigh.

They discovered another form of cancer in my mom.. so we have the leukemia in remission, another round of chemo, and another type of cancer that needs to be treated....

there isn't much I want to post about other than I dyed my hair- purple and I'm going on holiday for a week- I need an actually vacation for the first time in 3-4 years. imagine that..

song lyrics behind cut

Sorry
I'm sorry I can't bleed for you
The way you want me to
To throw myself against the rocks
The way I used to do

I'm sorry that I can't prolong
The pain I've been put through
I'm sorry, yes I'm sorry
So sorry
But not as sorry as you

CHORUS
You wear your misery like a crown
You're only happy when you're down
And the saddest part is you don't even know why
What are you lacking deep inside?
Depression as a point of pride
If you're not careful the world is going to pass you by

I'm sorry I can't always drown
In rivers of despair
A man forever broken by
A need for your repair

I'm sorry if the things I said
Were somehow misconstrued
I'm sorry, yes I'm sorry
So sorry
But not as sorry as you

(CHORUS)

I'm sorry that my happiness
Isn't to your taste
A pessimistic optimist
Who's bound to be replaced

I'm sorry I can't grovel in
Emotions I outgrew
I'm sorry, yes I'm sorry
So sorry
But not as sorry as you

(CHORUS)