Oh, What A FUCKING Emotional Day!
Well today was not good lol. I should've known when I got on the bus an hour ealier than I had to because I thought it was time and everything lol and I thought Kelsey was missing the bus when the bus came...I didn't realize I was extremely early until I waited for the class before us to let out then that's when it hit me. But anyways, after my second class my dad picked me up so we could go shopping at Walmart, which we all brought back up to my dorm room. Okay so after we bring everything up to my room my dad and I go back to the car so he can bring me back up to the campus for my last class. On the way out I see that there are this girl an guy walking together out for a walk, when I noticed that the guy was Don...I mean I knew it was his day off when he doesn't have any classes, but I was surprised to him with another girl. I mean I know we're not "Steady" or "Serious" yet...we haven't said that we were exclusive or anything, but still he didn't seem like the type, ya know? When I saw him even though he had his back to us, I knew it was him and I said "OMG! That's Don!" My dad thought I was joking but I wasn't and we kept debating whether it was him or not and my dad kept driving slow and stoping and almost turning around, but I was like no I know it's him. My dad said he didn't think Don would be like that and even offered to drive back after he dropped me off at the campus to see if he could see if it were really him. Anyways, I went to the computer lab where a few minutes later Kelsey met up with me and I told her what I saw and she asked if the girl he was with blonde and I was like yes. she told me that she see's them on the bus sitting together every now and then, but sometimes she sits by herself. So, I decided that i would skip today's last class and Kelsey and I hung out, but I texted messaged Don asking if he was working today because my mom and some of her work friends we're going to go to eat at Irisis, but of course he wasn't and he said he was hanging out with a friend watching Talladega Nights (which by the way he said he was going to watch with me earlier) and then he asked what I was doing and I said that I was skipping my last class. We didn't exchange any text messages for like over an hour and then finally he was like what's going on I said I was figuring out what I was going to do with school and I asked what he was doing and he said getting ready to leave for the night to go back to his apartment and also added that he had saw my dad and I leaving earlier and also asked what class I had skipped. But still it made me embarrassed that he saw me and my dad leaving...we were real smooth lol. But I didn't know how to responde to that so I didn't say anything while my mom and Kelsey and I had a girl talk. Finally after a long while Don texted again saying that if he was overwhelming me he would back off a little, which sounded to all of us that he wanted out of whatever relationship we have so my mom and Kelsey talked me into sending him a response asking if he wanted out. It took him a very long time to respond but he finally sent one back saying that he liked ME and that he wanted to make it work, but he didn't want to overwhelm me. And that's how we ended it for the night. It's so0o frusterating especially because this is like the first time I'm going through this...I'm disappointed. But also I guess he was being open and honest with things...sort of...but it was an awful long time he spent at the dorms with that girl...you can only watch a movie for so long, and plus I asked Kelsey if they talked a lot when they sat on the bus and she said they'd talk a little, but then be quiet...like him and I are and when we're in person all he wants to do is kiss hardly talk. I do most of the talking too, and sometimes especially when we're talking in person I get the feeling he isn't really listening or care what I'm saying and I think sometimes his eyes glaze over lol. So, yeah I dunno, but whatever, I guess we'll see what happens and leave it at that.
Oh, and for the record I vow not to shed tears over a guy who hurts me or breaks my heart, but if I honestly can't help but cry, I will most definately won't give them the satisfaction or power of seeing me cry over them.
Oh, and for the record I vow not to shed tears over a guy who hurts me or breaks my heart, but if I honestly can't help but cry, I will most definately won't give them the satisfaction or power of seeing me cry over them.