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Ok, so I figured out this Jeremiah kid that I was going out for like 9 months with wasn't a good person. He brought me down and I am very down now. It hasn't been worse. My mom wants me to start seeing a therapist again ew :( but ya figures I don't want to. They wouldn't be able to help me. I just have had enough with the world and this dumb town. I need to rise above everyone else because it's stupid people's mindless games that annoy me to death. I need someone to bring me up and to feel like I actually deserve living. Right now, at this point, I feel like I do not deserve anything. Life, love, happiness, a family..... I am so greedy. I hate myself as a human being. I don't even deserve to be called a human being. But of course, we were all born greedy, stubborn, and selfish.. hmmm maybe we were suppose to change? I didn't.