I can't break this habit...I can't...I won't

[onelife2live5a]

My resentment towards him is undeniable
But I still try to hide it
Just another mask I use
To conceal what I feel

Why do I do these things?
Unconsciously, do I want to make him suffer?
Like he made me hurt
years ago?

Suck it up, you fuckin baby
Leave the past in the past
Justt get on with your life and fuck him
I can't break this habit

YOu know the truth?
I'm actually a happy person
who smiles and always cares
with a violent rage that's just dying to get out... :)

What If I'm wrong?
What If I'm the one at fault
And I'm making this shit up
Because I scared of being wrong?

I feel like an outcast...
A rebel without a cause
But I've always been alone
Is this a blessing, or a curse??