"It was the best of time, It was the worst of times"

[onelife2live5a]

It's strange when at the same time you feel the strongest, you feel the weakest.

I'm really glad that I met Liz, but I feel like this is going nowhere.
I'm happy that things w/ my dad are better, but I feel like my grandmother hates me.
I'm ecstatic thatI'm getting a job at the bank, but I don't want the responsibility.
I'm satisfied that I've changed my way of life, but I feel like I haven't accomplished anything
I'm glad that I saw Gabrielisa, but I feel like I'm lying to myself.
I want to change how I look, but I don't want to change how I act.
I'm scared of making the wrong choice, but I'm terrified of not making a choice at all.
I want to prove myself, but I don't want to try too hard.
I fee like Leah isn't the one, but she's always been there and knows the most about me.
I feel like I'm doing the right thing, but I feel like I'm not on the right path.
I want one girl to come b4 all of them, but I'm talking to more than 1 right now....
I wanna live my life the way I want, but I find myself copying other people's actions.

I'm waiting for that one moment, but I'm fuckin tired of waiting.

WHO I AM HATES WHO I WAS.