*ouch...*
*Sigh*
I'm so depressed right now...
Sometimes I wonder if happiness is something I still can achieve, or might it be just another illusion which I will endlessly pursue and never get to hold.
I am at my lowest at this moment, I'm not sure if I'll be going to work at all. I just feel like curling up inside my bed and crying my eyes out.
I bear too much heartache.
Will my dreams ever come true, or shall I just wake up in the middle of the night to find out the dream was just a dream, within the darkness, completely alone...
This is hell, and I call it my life.
When will it end?
If there is a God, does he hate me so much as to see me this broken? Is he such a sadist that finds joy in watching my weep?
And silly me, I so thought that my tears had already ceased.
Will they ever...
When you sink the dagger into my chest
Please, turn off the lights...
I'd rather not
Have you watching the bloodstream run.
Let me go within my sleep
Into the depts of oblivion.
I was a fool to think
This life, could be for me.
This is the black pearl that always shines
With the beauty that sorrow has given it.
This is the sweetness of motionless seas
In which pain will grant the final peace.
Sink your thorns in me, dark rose
Drink from me your lovely crimson
For I'm not the one who got away
But rather, the one who was left behind.
This is my sorrow, David
This is who I am.
I'm so depressed right now...
Sometimes I wonder if happiness is something I still can achieve, or might it be just another illusion which I will endlessly pursue and never get to hold.
I am at my lowest at this moment, I'm not sure if I'll be going to work at all. I just feel like curling up inside my bed and crying my eyes out.
I bear too much heartache.
Will my dreams ever come true, or shall I just wake up in the middle of the night to find out the dream was just a dream, within the darkness, completely alone...
This is hell, and I call it my life.
When will it end?
If there is a God, does he hate me so much as to see me this broken? Is he such a sadist that finds joy in watching my weep?
And silly me, I so thought that my tears had already ceased.
Will they ever...
When you sink the dagger into my chest
Please, turn off the lights...
I'd rather not
Have you watching the bloodstream run.
Let me go within my sleep
Into the depts of oblivion.
I was a fool to think
This life, could be for me.
This is the black pearl that always shines
With the beauty that sorrow has given it.
This is the sweetness of motionless seas
In which pain will grant the final peace.
Sink your thorns in me, dark rose
Drink from me your lovely crimson
For I'm not the one who got away
But rather, the one who was left behind.
This is my sorrow, David
This is who I am.