My Second Entry
Today I started my 9 page paper that's due tomorrow than went to Abe's for lunch. We got WaWa and it was good. I got to school mad early and finished my labs for a computer class that's totally lame that I had to take. Now I'm sitting in class and am mad bored. Exciting right? I know, my life is.
Friday I'm going to my OBGYN and switching to Yaz or Yasmin because we finally figured out what has been getting me down for the last year HAS to be the birth control I'm on because there's nothing else that can be a problem, so I'm kind of sad about that though because I feel like I've wasted the last year of my life being down when I wanted to accomplish so much and that was all that needed to be fixed. It's okay I guess cause we're fixing it now.
My other worry is that it's not the birth control and even if it gets changed, I'll still be depressed. I'm worried I'll go to Rutgers and I won't like it there either, that I'll struggle with classes and no one will like me, just like Loyola. I want to make friends. I want to get involved in something and meet new people and go and do new things with them.
I worry about things I never cared about before. I wouldn't go into the grocery store with my mom when we were getting pedicures cause it was cold, I was wearing pants and a jacket, but had on sandels and thought people would stare and look at me funny. same when I went to WaWa with Abe cause I was in sweatpants(my pajamas) and I didn't want people looking at me like I was strange.
I'm feeling better right now, but I'm worried it's only temporary, that by next week, I'll be back to how I was again.