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I think I am emotionally weak. It seems I am very down on myself latly. Normally I would call Kristen to pick me up, but i feel bad, I wont ruin her trip. Bee makes me feel disjointed, she is still in love with Catherine. But she tells me she will always love me more, it still makes me want to cry. But i encourage her to tell me these things, I want to know how she truly feels, even if it tears me apart inside. I dont kow if it just makes me a crazy jealous girlfriend who blows everything out of proportion, I cant help how I feel. I feel like this relationship is already full of limitations and letdowns, and i still dont deserve her. I am scared to stand up and be demanding. She knows me better than any other girl ever cared to. And shes so pretty, and smart, and we just go so well together. But still something, bothers me, its very gray, I cant place my finger on it.