Shut up Shut up Shut up.... dont want to hear you now.
Today was up and down. Id rather wish part of it never happend.
I absoultly love my times with my friends. Last night was funny as hell. WOW. My head is still in pain from you two. We stayed up really really late. And i'm run down from that. Chelsea made rachel and i some pancakes this morning. they were splendid. :D Oh yeah and yesturday chels and i got 25+ apps and thats only by the midland mall. i'll be soooo mad if i dont get a job in any of those.
This is where it went bad....
I got home and my mom calls. Wtf. she hasnt made one attempt to talk to me since Easter other than some horrible times. She asked me if i was going to be home or not and then she decided to come over with the excuse of my report card. I knew she was going to pull sometime with me. She always does. I hate the fact that she always has to ruin a good day. So anyways she asks if i want to go to the mall with her... why the hell would i want to go to a public place with her. I can't even stand being in the same room as her, but she wants to take me to a public place. yeah right. So shes like fine we can take a ride. At this point i really dont want to go with her, but she would have made me anyways. I go outside and discover her new ride. I really find if funny how a month ago she didnt have enough money to "buy clothes" so she decides shes going to have all of mine. And if i might add..all of my really really slutty skirts that i dont even want to wear anymore because of that reason, but for some reason she wants all of my clothing. But somehow she has money for a new convertable. o wait.. it must be one of those many guys that actually believes her little sob story of how she's in sooo much pain and can't work. Wtf grow the hell up mom and suck it up. No one believes you anymore unless its some lameass dumb as a doornail lonely guy. God then i had to sit there and breath all of her smoke once again. I hate that. I really do. I hope she gets lung cancer and shrivels up and dies. The first thing that came out of her mouth was "i know you are thinking about going to western..." and then decides to tell me what the right things to do in my life are. Yeah i'm sure she'd really know when she hasn't even talked to me in three months. God. and then she told me that she read my diary. I was really really confused because i dont keep a diary other than this.. if you even call this one. So i was like yeah okay. And she said that i just just wrote in it and said all this stuff about hating her and crap. Then she told me it was grey and i realized i had this Eyor (god i cant spell that hes from whinney the pooh.)one that i bought 3 years ago when i went to florida (thats how i got it) and was dating John King..(wow) Wtf. and i told her that i havent written in that since like 8th grade. and then she decides shes going to fight about this with me for ten minutes. WTF. Then she told me that if i'm not planning to move back with her shes moving out of state. another WTF. i honestly couldnt care what she does anymore. ahh. And another thing i hate how she blames EVERYTHING on me. Like her not having a job, or why we dont talk, or why shes moving, what next her back? hah she probably already does. what a lair. RRRRRR i just cant stand her! She said a lot more too.. i'm just getting sick of thinking about her. We were fighting when she pulled into my driveway and shes like yeah i love you too. and i got out and slammed the door and yelled i dont. i hate you. then she brought up the diary thing again! and said something about still hating her. and i was like yeah mom i do. and shes like you just said you didnt wright that and i said.. no mom you have it wrong. i wrote those 3 years ago, i dont remember why i said those things... and you didnt ask if i hated you now... and i do!.... well something around those lines. I really can't stand her at times. I feel bad for saying i hate her and shes the worst person ive ever met.. but its true. gosh.:/
Right about now i could use some big hugs. :/
So after an hour+ of calming myself down with the help of my dad and Angie (i'm thankful i have them) I ate some food. Then i talked to Zach and he came over. We were watching my tv with my dad and angie and the doorbell rang. My dad answered it and this made me laugh... Chelsea, Rachel and Rachael were hiding behing the bush and i guess my dad walked by them and they freaked him out. HAH for them trying to scare me. They came inside and we talked for a while. THey make me laugh. Rachael got her wisdom teeth out like monday and today was the first day i saw her since. Her face swelling still hasnt went down all of the way. aww poor kiddo. then they left. :/ Zach and i watched the game. yay for the pistons. Then Zach left. and i sat here typing all of this... how sad.
Okay. I've been really thinking. And now i'm like 80% sure i'm switching to western. There's only a couple reasons for me to stay at garber and way to many for switching. i think within a week i'll know for sure.
I think i'm taking rachel tomorrow to the eastland show. so yay for her first concert. :D
I absoultly love my times with my friends. Last night was funny as hell. WOW. My head is still in pain from you two. We stayed up really really late. And i'm run down from that. Chelsea made rachel and i some pancakes this morning. they were splendid. :D Oh yeah and yesturday chels and i got 25+ apps and thats only by the midland mall. i'll be soooo mad if i dont get a job in any of those.
This is where it went bad....
I got home and my mom calls. Wtf. she hasnt made one attempt to talk to me since Easter other than some horrible times. She asked me if i was going to be home or not and then she decided to come over with the excuse of my report card. I knew she was going to pull sometime with me. She always does. I hate the fact that she always has to ruin a good day. So anyways she asks if i want to go to the mall with her... why the hell would i want to go to a public place with her. I can't even stand being in the same room as her, but she wants to take me to a public place. yeah right. So shes like fine we can take a ride. At this point i really dont want to go with her, but she would have made me anyways. I go outside and discover her new ride. I really find if funny how a month ago she didnt have enough money to "buy clothes" so she decides shes going to have all of mine. And if i might add..all of my really really slutty skirts that i dont even want to wear anymore because of that reason, but for some reason she wants all of my clothing. But somehow she has money for a new convertable. o wait.. it must be one of those many guys that actually believes her little sob story of how she's in sooo much pain and can't work. Wtf grow the hell up mom and suck it up. No one believes you anymore unless its some lameass dumb as a doornail lonely guy. God then i had to sit there and breath all of her smoke once again. I hate that. I really do. I hope she gets lung cancer and shrivels up and dies. The first thing that came out of her mouth was "i know you are thinking about going to western..." and then decides to tell me what the right things to do in my life are. Yeah i'm sure she'd really know when she hasn't even talked to me in three months. God. and then she told me that she read my diary. I was really really confused because i dont keep a diary other than this.. if you even call this one. So i was like yeah okay. And she said that i just just wrote in it and said all this stuff about hating her and crap. Then she told me it was grey and i realized i had this Eyor (god i cant spell that hes from whinney the pooh.)one that i bought 3 years ago when i went to florida (thats how i got it) and was dating John King..(wow) Wtf. and i told her that i havent written in that since like 8th grade. and then she decides shes going to fight about this with me for ten minutes. WTF. Then she told me that if i'm not planning to move back with her shes moving out of state. another WTF. i honestly couldnt care what she does anymore. ahh. And another thing i hate how she blames EVERYTHING on me. Like her not having a job, or why we dont talk, or why shes moving, what next her back? hah she probably already does. what a lair. RRRRRR i just cant stand her! She said a lot more too.. i'm just getting sick of thinking about her. We were fighting when she pulled into my driveway and shes like yeah i love you too. and i got out and slammed the door and yelled i dont. i hate you. then she brought up the diary thing again! and said something about still hating her. and i was like yeah mom i do. and shes like you just said you didnt wright that and i said.. no mom you have it wrong. i wrote those 3 years ago, i dont remember why i said those things... and you didnt ask if i hated you now... and i do!.... well something around those lines. I really can't stand her at times. I feel bad for saying i hate her and shes the worst person ive ever met.. but its true. gosh.:/
Right about now i could use some big hugs. :/
So after an hour+ of calming myself down with the help of my dad and Angie (i'm thankful i have them) I ate some food. Then i talked to Zach and he came over. We were watching my tv with my dad and angie and the doorbell rang. My dad answered it and this made me laugh... Chelsea, Rachel and Rachael were hiding behing the bush and i guess my dad walked by them and they freaked him out. HAH for them trying to scare me. They came inside and we talked for a while. THey make me laugh. Rachael got her wisdom teeth out like monday and today was the first day i saw her since. Her face swelling still hasnt went down all of the way. aww poor kiddo. then they left. :/ Zach and i watched the game. yay for the pistons. Then Zach left. and i sat here typing all of this... how sad.
Okay. I've been really thinking. And now i'm like 80% sure i'm switching to western. There's only a couple reasons for me to stay at garber and way to many for switching. i think within a week i'll know for sure.
I think i'm taking rachel tomorrow to the eastland show. so yay for her first concert. :D