guess its that time of the month again
mmmm....im sitting here and i have no idea what to write. grrr. i started off bored and thinking about lj and such and decided that i would update and now i dont know what to write. well i can start off where i left off from my last entry i guess...ya i can start there.
soooo baylor. i love it. i absolutely love it and if i talked to u since then then i have told u how much that i love it. i really wanna go there. it would be perfect. too bad that its $27,000!!! hahaha. im poor white boy and i cannot afford that. so my parents basically told me that i have to get tons of scholarships to almost completely pay for it all or else im going to UT or something...ugh. well i somewhat believe in myself. and i really wanna go. anyone else believe in me?? well u all should. and so im gonna be able to go. and hiba and stephanie are coming along with me!
sooo evacuation. didnt even know about the damn thing until monday nite...left wednesday and never looked back and its screwed up my life. grrr came on sooo fast...and it waz blown up and waz portrayed as scary, not saying that it wasnt, and shoved in our faces in order to scare us and we left and it didnt do any good. soo if u dont already know i left wednesday. took 23hrs to go 100miles west towards san antonio. worst day of my entire life. sick....didnt eat...didnt sleep...hott cuz no AC...no bathroom at all...ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere and scared tha shit outta me and i had a meltdown and my mom waz having several with her panic attacks. so thursday...dying...no gas left...mom searched down long lost friend that hadnt talk to in 10yrs or so and they happened to live in the area where we were stranded. so we found their farm. thursday afternoon. tons of cows. stayed there thursday nite. got up friday morning to leave and try to make it to Bandera, town outside San Antonio where my aunt lives and where my whole family had evacuated to. mom made me leave my car...which waz cool..then also my cello inside the house. my heart sank and i was about to slap her. but she made me leave it there. nothing i could do about it. got to bandera that nite...stayed the nite with my family. got up saturday and the thing wasnt that bad and went through so we decided to head home that morning. drove back towards home and stopped at the farm place saturday nite. ate pizza. got my car. got my wonderful cello which i hugged and kissed upon seeing one another again. then left to come home. got home around 11pm saturday nite. most horrible experience of my life!!! ahhhhh. at least im okay
but lemme tell ya. my life is effing screwed up. i dont know what to do. im just like blah. but im sure lots of ppl are feeling that right now. dont want to do anything but sit on my lazy ass and watch tv. internet been down since today. no motivation to play cello nor do homework. auditions in a month for allstate. really doubt i even have a chance. *sigh* whatev. i gotta realize that. but hey i can still try and practice some before then. maybe a miracle will happen. and HOPE of course is screwed up...got fix all that. then school...grr wish it would start already!!! thursday is to late. whatev
okay...well all that waz like negative ranting and what not....mmmm...anything positive or good that i can say that im looking forward to....seeing my friends at school. talking to my close friend tonite. going back to school. iono. im screwed up right now. what else is new. oh and by tha way...does anybody even read these??? leave a comment if so cuz i only feel compelled to update this cuz i sense that maybe at least one person actually reads and cares...iono. maybe i am mistaken. :/
soooo baylor. i love it. i absolutely love it and if i talked to u since then then i have told u how much that i love it. i really wanna go there. it would be perfect. too bad that its $27,000!!! hahaha. im poor white boy and i cannot afford that. so my parents basically told me that i have to get tons of scholarships to almost completely pay for it all or else im going to UT or something...ugh. well i somewhat believe in myself. and i really wanna go. anyone else believe in me?? well u all should. and so im gonna be able to go. and hiba and stephanie are coming along with me!
sooo evacuation. didnt even know about the damn thing until monday nite...left wednesday and never looked back and its screwed up my life. grrr came on sooo fast...and it waz blown up and waz portrayed as scary, not saying that it wasnt, and shoved in our faces in order to scare us and we left and it didnt do any good. soo if u dont already know i left wednesday. took 23hrs to go 100miles west towards san antonio. worst day of my entire life. sick....didnt eat...didnt sleep...hott cuz no AC...no bathroom at all...ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere and scared tha shit outta me and i had a meltdown and my mom waz having several with her panic attacks. so thursday...dying...no gas left...mom searched down long lost friend that hadnt talk to in 10yrs or so and they happened to live in the area where we were stranded. so we found their farm. thursday afternoon. tons of cows. stayed there thursday nite. got up friday morning to leave and try to make it to Bandera, town outside San Antonio where my aunt lives and where my whole family had evacuated to. mom made me leave my car...which waz cool..then also my cello inside the house. my heart sank and i was about to slap her. but she made me leave it there. nothing i could do about it. got to bandera that nite...stayed the nite with my family. got up saturday and the thing wasnt that bad and went through so we decided to head home that morning. drove back towards home and stopped at the farm place saturday nite. ate pizza. got my car. got my wonderful cello which i hugged and kissed upon seeing one another again. then left to come home. got home around 11pm saturday nite. most horrible experience of my life!!! ahhhhh. at least im okay
but lemme tell ya. my life is effing screwed up. i dont know what to do. im just like blah. but im sure lots of ppl are feeling that right now. dont want to do anything but sit on my lazy ass and watch tv. internet been down since today. no motivation to play cello nor do homework. auditions in a month for allstate. really doubt i even have a chance. *sigh* whatev. i gotta realize that. but hey i can still try and practice some before then. maybe a miracle will happen. and HOPE of course is screwed up...got fix all that. then school...grr wish it would start already!!! thursday is to late. whatev
okay...well all that waz like negative ranting and what not....mmmm...anything positive or good that i can say that im looking forward to....seeing my friends at school. talking to my close friend tonite. going back to school. iono. im screwed up right now. what else is new. oh and by tha way...does anybody even read these??? leave a comment if so cuz i only feel compelled to update this cuz i sense that maybe at least one person actually reads and cares...iono. maybe i am mistaken. :/