what is happening?
i really dont even know what im doing anymore..today was so fucked up. i thought about him alll day at wonderland.. i couldnt stop.. its like i need him in my life in order to live..i know that doesnt sound very original..and people say it all the time...but when you think about someone 24/7..you barely eat..you never sleep..you cant even go to school anymore because you cant stand to see them, knowing you cant touch them..kiss them...hold them... or even talk to them and be yourself anymore, you know this feeling is strong. I dont even understand why I cant move on..but I guess when you find someone as perfect as him...theres no more use in looking, when you know there will never be anyone better. I dont even look at other guys anymore...and i barely talk to anyone about this anymore...he doesnt even know about my feelings for him..should i tell him? ill probably ruin what little bit of friendship we have going, by telling him..i dont know.. my health is getting even worse too..fuck! --everything i havent mentioned..everything they dont know...they cant see...theyll never see...--