I Try So Fuckin Hard...

[onelastdeath]

UGH!Dammit Im Leaving to mexico today. it sucks casue since ive gotten back from chourpus christi i havent got to see framaliz..i wish i could see her somehow.i really miss her alot and each day i dont get to see her i get sadder and sadder.i love that girl so much but it dont seem that she loves me.i try to hard to not let the jealousy get to me but dammit isnt enough enough?ive tried to just keep it inside and not let it get out, and its like i cant stand it sometimes the way framaliz acts around other guys, i mean just look at warped tour, im not getting into detail but man was that day horrible, thankfully there were bands there and i just enjoyed the performence's, oh yes and then lets not forget the Brand New show.Funny how shit always happens at shows and what not.still all this happens and i have much love for her..anywho im thinking of moving to san antonio wiht my sister for a while. i want to move casue im tired of the same shit down here and the same pepole but yet there are a few that are woth staying for.woah last night i relized how mad i can get. my mom got all bitchy casue i was on the phone so i got off and got online, and she was still bitching at me.god then she came into the living room and disconnected my computer and other plugs.i was so freakin mad i felt like just grabbing a pan and bashing it into her face.then sometimes i just feel like trashing the place when i get mad. i feel like just grabbing a chair and throwing it out the dam window.but thankfully i guess i can control my anger and i dont let it get out of hand.

enough of that here are things im looking forward to
1.)Strech Armstong with The Bled and Norma Jean.
2.)Between The Buried And Me
3.)COMEBACK KID!!!!!
4.)to not see some pepole.
5.)Seeing Thursday in san antonio i think september.
6.)ah yes the Plea For Peace Tour With Poison The Well and such.
7.)hopefully getting to spend time wiht the one i care the most about
8.)THE NEW THURSDAY CD!!!!
ok thats all