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im feeling thourghly depressed today.
i feel like i've been doing so much, trying hard to keep this summer interresting,trying not to have a dull moment,and have a great time but still im finding it hard to not focus on the bad shit thats going on.
i should be happy that i've kept myself so busy, and haven't been cooped up at home...but im not. and its frustrating.
so i'm going to vent. . .
summer is almost over and im still unemployed.it appears i took a year off softball for nothing ...which in many ways is bitter sweet...but still i can't shake this feeling of regret.
then theres the news of my oldest and definitely one of my best friends marriage...
just this weekend i was told of his engagement.
...a few months ago he called me and told me that he was going to be a father. he never said anything about settleing down, he wasn't even ready to tell his family about everything...and now i come to find hes getting married!
he is only 19 years old!
i havent been able to talk to him yet...and to be frank i have no idea what to say to him when i do. i want to be supportive and help him out in any way i can. but at the same time i want to shake him and tell him hes making the biggest mistake of his life. but the again i would feel selfesh to say such things. maybe i shouldnt say anything cause my oppinion is far to biast.
i dont know. . . . but this scenerio is strangly similar to the one from "My Best Friends Wedding"
you know how michael and jewls were best friends....knew eachother for years and years...well thats me and this guy; i grew up with him, have known him all my life...then theres kimmy; shes this random girl...
now jewls is torn, cause she loves michael but wants to support him. and well thats me, i love this guy, have since we were kids...but i also want to support him in what ever he does...at the same time i think its a mistake to marry because of a baby.
i dont know if any of you followed that, i'm a huge fan of that movie....
anyways, that whole thing is bringing me down.
among other troubles.
but my dad just brought me a coffee coolata so i guess i should stop complaining and just think about other things right now and enjoy my drink.
fuck being sad.
i feel like i've been doing so much, trying hard to keep this summer interresting,trying not to have a dull moment,and have a great time but still im finding it hard to not focus on the bad shit thats going on.
i should be happy that i've kept myself so busy, and haven't been cooped up at home...but im not. and its frustrating.
so i'm going to vent. . .
summer is almost over and im still unemployed.it appears i took a year off softball for nothing ...which in many ways is bitter sweet...but still i can't shake this feeling of regret.
then theres the news of my oldest and definitely one of my best friends marriage...
just this weekend i was told of his engagement.
...a few months ago he called me and told me that he was going to be a father. he never said anything about settleing down, he wasn't even ready to tell his family about everything...and now i come to find hes getting married!
he is only 19 years old!
i havent been able to talk to him yet...and to be frank i have no idea what to say to him when i do. i want to be supportive and help him out in any way i can. but at the same time i want to shake him and tell him hes making the biggest mistake of his life. but the again i would feel selfesh to say such things. maybe i shouldnt say anything cause my oppinion is far to biast.
i dont know. . . . but this scenerio is strangly similar to the one from "My Best Friends Wedding"
you know how michael and jewls were best friends....knew eachother for years and years...well thats me and this guy; i grew up with him, have known him all my life...then theres kimmy; shes this random girl...
now jewls is torn, cause she loves michael but wants to support him. and well thats me, i love this guy, have since we were kids...but i also want to support him in what ever he does...at the same time i think its a mistake to marry because of a baby.
i dont know if any of you followed that, i'm a huge fan of that movie....
anyways, that whole thing is bringing me down.
among other troubles.
but my dad just brought me a coffee coolata so i guess i should stop complaining and just think about other things right now and enjoy my drink.
fuck being sad.