minor giant steps
todo_always.txt:
- do not sleep past noon
- open the blinds before getting on the computer
- always look nice when going out
- make eye contact while talking and listening
- drink a glass of water for every meal
It's easier to do the little things. Make sure my room is clean before I go out. Put my clothes away when I take them off. Do something productive before doing several somethings leisurely. And it's been a little while since I've been scared, the hopeless slicing i can't do it i won't be able to do it i don't want to fail again gut-fear. The failure isn't in doing, it's in trying. Stop before you begin.
But if there's one thing I'm good at, it's learning.
My hair is darker and no longer self-cut. I haven't weighed this little since my early teens. Against all precedent, people are coming to me for confidence and support. My coworkers like me. I think. It's not so hard; it's not so bad.
This is a temporary state. Given half a week or so it'll all start feeling like a facade again.
- do not sleep past noon
- open the blinds before getting on the computer
- always look nice when going out
- make eye contact while talking and listening
- drink a glass of water for every meal
It's easier to do the little things. Make sure my room is clean before I go out. Put my clothes away when I take them off. Do something productive before doing several somethings leisurely. And it's been a little while since I've been scared, the hopeless slicing i can't do it i won't be able to do it i don't want to fail again gut-fear. The failure isn't in doing, it's in trying. Stop before you begin.
But if there's one thing I'm good at, it's learning.
My hair is darker and no longer self-cut. I haven't weighed this little since my early teens. Against all precedent, people are coming to me for confidence and support. My coworkers like me. I think. It's not so hard; it's not so bad.
This is a temporary state. Given half a week or so it'll all start feeling like a facade again.