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i woke up at 3 this morning and i can't seem to go back to bed (not that reading pirated manga is helping....) at any rate i was musing:
it must be nice to be crazy. I've been thinking about that alot lately. I think it would be nice to just exist in my own sphere where reality was whatever i wanted it to be. where i could talk to napoleon or have tea with the pope. whatever. and then i thought... what if i'm already crazy? when your crazy people continually spend time telling you how out of touch you are, how you need to get a grip and come back down, and if you nod your head and keep quiet enough they eventually give up on you and walk away. or find proffesional help. I have deff. experienced all of the above so maybe i'm crazy and everyones just humoring me. then again all teenagers are like that so maybe being a teenager is being crazy. but then i think that teenagers are alot happier than the adults with their reality and burdens and responsibility so perhps being crazy is what your supposed to be because thats when everyone is happy. and then again maybe reality and the burdens adults put on thenselves is the illusion. maybe there the crazy ones. maybe you just become crazy when you get older. slowly spining into the senile sphere. or maybe reality is crazy. but that's just crazy.
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i need mental help.
it must be nice to be crazy. I've been thinking about that alot lately. I think it would be nice to just exist in my own sphere where reality was whatever i wanted it to be. where i could talk to napoleon or have tea with the pope. whatever. and then i thought... what if i'm already crazy? when your crazy people continually spend time telling you how out of touch you are, how you need to get a grip and come back down, and if you nod your head and keep quiet enough they eventually give up on you and walk away. or find proffesional help. I have deff. experienced all of the above so maybe i'm crazy and everyones just humoring me. then again all teenagers are like that so maybe being a teenager is being crazy. but then i think that teenagers are alot happier than the adults with their reality and burdens and responsibility so perhps being crazy is what your supposed to be because thats when everyone is happy. and then again maybe reality and the burdens adults put on thenselves is the illusion. maybe there the crazy ones. maybe you just become crazy when you get older. slowly spining into the senile sphere. or maybe reality is crazy. but that's just crazy.
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i need mental help.