it never was and never will be
okay here is the long entry i promised you a while ago...
Thursday- school was stupid, people were trying to talk to me and see what was wrong, but i think they should all mind their own business and if i wanna tell them whats going on then ill tell them. but im not running to blab my business...so i got called a bitch cause of it...whatever.
Friday- we had the sprit assembly and it was kinda pointless, but i did it anyway. school itself couldnt of been more horrible. In civics someone made fun of me cuz i was acting depressed...whoop dee do. but after skool was alright, the fam and I went to Parker's for his dads 40th.. i chilled with Parko, Rik and Cody. we got bored after a bit, so we walked outside. but i didnt feel like staying with them so i walked back to Parker's cauldesack and sat on the curb looking at the sky for a few minutes. they didnt come back, so i went in Parker's room and slept for like a half an hour. they came back and let me sleep some more and then i got up to play basketball with them. we were playing two on two and Cody hit me in the eye with the basketball and broke my glasses. i excused myself out to the curb again cuz i said i "needed to get ice"....it didnt hurt at all, but it was a good excuse to cry my eyes out till they were dry. so for 20 minutes or so i cried...and cried....and cried some more...and then i stopped...and then i cried again.. then i prayed and i cried.. then i stopped for good. i came back to the court just to stand there and look like a efifn retard. that was a waste of my time, so i went inside and talked to Lynne and Kelly on AIM. then the boys came back to the room and kept asking me what was wrong and telling me to cheer up, but i blew them off. my mom came in the room and read my quick conversation with Lynne like the nosey son of a...nevermind. well anyway she read it and wanted to "talk about it"...what kind of bull is that...like im gonna tell her...so when she left we had to go downstairs and have cake. i really didnt eat that night except for some fruit...i think im accidentally starving myself. haha but anyway so we just went upstairs again and did nothing...it was great. Cody left, then Patrick, so it was just me and Parker. then i had to go.. and when i got home Steven called me...we had the funniest conversation ever.. hes so awesome. but yeah then i went to sleep
Today- i was so bored today...my parents dragged me and my sisters up to Williamsburg to see houses around my dad's new job. oh my effin gosh. can you say "i wanna kill myself right now".... it was pointless...and i kept getting yelled at. my rents were saying i have such a bad attitude and im a "miserable child"...that is a direct quote too.. so i just said ok and listened to music....so i wasted a day basically.
but tomorrow will be awesome! Nicole, Stef, Steven and I are hanging out (hopefully) so i can finally see Steven and Nicole in person and see my great friend Stephanie again :) yay well i gotta go, leave comments and such...ill see you another day
EdenRose