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It's the way it often is for me, these past months: restless, sad, lonesome, and feeling stuck.
I need to meet new people, there is no doubt about that. But there are some problems, all stemming from my own issues and insecurities. One being - I still always have that teenage feeling of not really belonging. I'm afraid to talk to the people that really interest me, most of the time, because I always feel like I'm not ---- enough. Not punk enough, not enough of a traveler, not interesting enough, etc., etc. The other being - I don't know how to meet people when I'm in a monogamous relationship. I get kind of afraid of what I might do or say, and how it might be (mis)construed. I don't want to be with other people, but I also don't know how to relate to people when making out isn't an option.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
I need to meet new people, there is no doubt about that. But there are some problems, all stemming from my own issues and insecurities. One being - I still always have that teenage feeling of not really belonging. I'm afraid to talk to the people that really interest me, most of the time, because I always feel like I'm not ---- enough. Not punk enough, not enough of a traveler, not interesting enough, etc., etc. The other being - I don't know how to meet people when I'm in a monogamous relationship. I get kind of afraid of what I might do or say, and how it might be (mis)construed. I don't want to be with other people, but I also don't know how to relate to people when making out isn't an option.
What the fuck is wrong with me?