Lost_Heros
I gulped down my third beer and threw it on the ground. It didn't break but it did roll. I frowned and laid back and hit my head on the wall. "Fuck", I said. I got up and walked across my aprtment , stepping on my bottle in the process. Why did I do that?
Why did I hit on Buffy? Clearly, she's not interested. She's never been. Why'd I think she would be now? And now I felt bad. Felt dirty. I tried to force her into something.
A revelation.
Like Spike. Oh shit. I reminded her of Spike! I opened my fridge, grabbed another beer and looked at it. I finally decided against it and returned it to it's frozen confines.
I felt sick, felt bad. I walked into my room and took my shirt off. I then sat on my bed and pulled my shoes and socks off and then pants and boxers. I walked into the bathroom and turned on the water. Needed to feel cleaner. Needed to be ok. Why can't things be okay!?
I climbed into the shower and stepped into the spray of water. It moved around my face and then onto my body. It felt warm and relieving. How it should feel. I then leaned back as the water fell onto me. it streamed around me. I then turned it off, no shampoo no nothing. Just left and picked up the phone. Dialed...buttons, what a nuisance.
"Buffy?"
((Tag Buffy))
Why did I hit on Buffy? Clearly, she's not interested. She's never been. Why'd I think she would be now? And now I felt bad. Felt dirty. I tried to force her into something.
A revelation.
Like Spike. Oh shit. I reminded her of Spike! I opened my fridge, grabbed another beer and looked at it. I finally decided against it and returned it to it's frozen confines.
I felt sick, felt bad. I walked into my room and took my shirt off. I then sat on my bed and pulled my shoes and socks off and then pants and boxers. I walked into the bathroom and turned on the water. Needed to feel cleaner. Needed to be ok. Why can't things be okay!?
I climbed into the shower and stepped into the spray of water. It moved around my face and then onto my body. It felt warm and relieving. How it should feel. I then leaned back as the water fell onto me. it streamed around me. I then turned it off, no shampoo no nothing. Just left and picked up the phone. Dialed...buttons, what a nuisance.
"Buffy?"
((Tag Buffy))