why the fuck do i still care
i dont know how the hell i feel or how she feels. i think she is back to her normal self, the way she was before with out me, the girl who is easy to get with and hooks up with anyone. yeah that kind of reputation, looks great huh. i absolutley hated it before and it took so long to get over that but now she is off doing that shit again. Weve been broken up for 2 weeks now, one really since we were suppose to be together until she ruined that. I really wanted to give her another chance. i love her so much but im sick of her tellin me she loves me and hten she goes out and hooks up with her 3rd guy since weve broken up and now claims she might be together with him. LAst night at first i intended on bringing jaime to my HC bein on the breka we took and ask her back out but that didnt happen since she got with some doosh. So i ended up goin by my self and yeah i hooked up with someone and i totally regret it. IT made wish that iwas back with her and wished we never broke up in the first place. She WAS soo special to me, still is but after hearing about her getting with ANOTHEr guy just totally screws up my thoughts. Im sick fo her ass tellin me she loves me and she still goes out and hooks up with guys. IF she really loved me she would have felt the same way i did last night when i was hookin up with another girl, TRYing to get over her. I found out that itll take a long time to get over her and hooking up with other girls wont help it at all. TO her i dont think she loved me like she thought. i regret not taking u back that night u asked me back out, but as i see now its not happening and it looks like you want to go back to your old self. I dont know what me and you are but it sure isnt what i wished for. :(