RAWR
Idk if I'm asking for advice, but I guess people's opinions would like to be heard.
I met this girl online through one of my ex's, and I guess the first time we talked online, we fought because of something she'd said to my then girlfriend, but I don't remember that conversation. We talked again, as I was obvlivious to who she was, except she was a good friend of my ex's. We talked on threeway, and then I wanted to call her before I moved to Washington. Something in me had told me I was going to miss her hardcore, and I couldn't figure it out. I went months before talking to her again. One day at school, I found her number in my notebook of numbers, and decided to call. I was nervous, like I'd known her forever and had a crush or something on her. She was surprised to hear from me, but happy as well. We talked for about 30-45 minutes, and then school was calling. After that, I called her quite often, and she even talked to some of my friends at school (it was an interagency school and we could get away with murder..so hawt). I soon realized why I was always nervous when I called her; I did have a crush on her. We had talked online a couple times while I was over in Washington, but it was always cut short. Either she had to go, or someone needed the phone or the computer at the house I was in. I was always disappointed, for deeper reasons than normal. When I returned to Massachusetts, visiting my family (still here), we talked online a couple times, and then I asked her to call. She did, and since then, even when I was in Maryland visiting other family, we've talked on the phone just about every night. My feelings have rapidly grown for her. For awhile, they stayed in one spot. But that changed. She grew feelings for me, too, and we've always been honest to one another. I've found it incredibly easy to be honest and open with her, and I can't say that about more than maybe..2 or 3 people, including her. One day, I told her my feelings had gotten really strong, and I told her I wanted to tell her I loved her, but I was afraid to. She said she felt the same way, and since then we've said it whenever we felt the other needed to hear it, or we'll call the other out of the blue and just be like, "I just wanted to call and tell you I love you and miss you."
Ready for the catch?
Her girlfriend of a year lives in England. That has made things difficult for all three of us, but neither me nor..we'll call her M..have hid from our feelings, just let them go wherever they're meant to. I've continuously asked her if she thought I should step back, or if she wanted me to, and every time it's no. We're trying to make plans to see one another, and the ones we made once fell through. It was a roadtrip first to Washington, and then just up the East Coast, but they both fell through. She told me today and the other day, "I won't lie. I want you. I want to be with you. I want it really bad. But something tells me we're not meant to be." So I came back with, "We can never know unless we try." She was quiet for a bit, then said "I know." :LKNF:OIUGB:OIGBfongifobin;eoigbhne0fgioin
Someone, help. What do y'all think?
P.S. This is her:
I met this girl online through one of my ex's, and I guess the first time we talked online, we fought because of something she'd said to my then girlfriend, but I don't remember that conversation. We talked again, as I was obvlivious to who she was, except she was a good friend of my ex's. We talked on threeway, and then I wanted to call her before I moved to Washington. Something in me had told me I was going to miss her hardcore, and I couldn't figure it out. I went months before talking to her again. One day at school, I found her number in my notebook of numbers, and decided to call. I was nervous, like I'd known her forever and had a crush or something on her. She was surprised to hear from me, but happy as well. We talked for about 30-45 minutes, and then school was calling. After that, I called her quite often, and she even talked to some of my friends at school (it was an interagency school and we could get away with murder..so hawt). I soon realized why I was always nervous when I called her; I did have a crush on her. We had talked online a couple times while I was over in Washington, but it was always cut short. Either she had to go, or someone needed the phone or the computer at the house I was in. I was always disappointed, for deeper reasons than normal. When I returned to Massachusetts, visiting my family (still here), we talked online a couple times, and then I asked her to call. She did, and since then, even when I was in Maryland visiting other family, we've talked on the phone just about every night. My feelings have rapidly grown for her. For awhile, they stayed in one spot. But that changed. She grew feelings for me, too, and we've always been honest to one another. I've found it incredibly easy to be honest and open with her, and I can't say that about more than maybe..2 or 3 people, including her. One day, I told her my feelings had gotten really strong, and I told her I wanted to tell her I loved her, but I was afraid to. She said she felt the same way, and since then we've said it whenever we felt the other needed to hear it, or we'll call the other out of the blue and just be like, "I just wanted to call and tell you I love you and miss you."
Ready for the catch?
Her girlfriend of a year lives in England. That has made things difficult for all three of us, but neither me nor..we'll call her M..have hid from our feelings, just let them go wherever they're meant to. I've continuously asked her if she thought I should step back, or if she wanted me to, and every time it's no. We're trying to make plans to see one another, and the ones we made once fell through. It was a roadtrip first to Washington, and then just up the East Coast, but they both fell through. She told me today and the other day, "I won't lie. I want you. I want to be with you. I want it really bad. But something tells me we're not meant to be." So I came back with, "We can never know unless we try." She was quiet for a bit, then said "I know." :LKNF:OIUGB:OIGBfongifobin;eoigbhne0fgioin
Someone, help. What do y'all think?
P.S. This is her: