I'm excited
and it may not be that I have figured it all out. I most certainly haven't, in fact.
But it's like a conversion experience, I can't explain it clearly. And the way I would explain my thoughts leading to this decision to say what I said to Him 4 minutes ago would cause most to say "wow, you let a little book convince you that much?"
I suppose I did.
I can't explain why i'm excited, and that excites me. I also know that the euphoria won't last, but --whatever!-- I can say that I am making the right steps to where I'm going. I feel like I've returned home or something corny like that, haha. It's not exactly a relief, but it's a very pleasant feeling to feel more concrete about something so central to life.
I will probably waste precious sleep time putting this down to more words, but I had to document/share it!
But it's like a conversion experience, I can't explain it clearly. And the way I would explain my thoughts leading to this decision to say what I said to Him 4 minutes ago would cause most to say "wow, you let a little book convince you that much?"
I suppose I did.
I can't explain why i'm excited, and that excites me. I also know that the euphoria won't last, but --whatever!-- I can say that I am making the right steps to where I'm going. I feel like I've returned home or something corny like that, haha. It's not exactly a relief, but it's a very pleasant feeling to feel more concrete about something so central to life.
I will probably waste precious sleep time putting this down to more words, but I had to document/share it!