I think I kinda figured it out
No, I'm really not that angry or bitter anymore. I needed a 2 and a half hour drive to Orono by myself to finally figure that out. What's the point in getting frustrated with the way things go in a college town. We actually talked about this in on my classes last week, the fear that college and post secondary education has lost it's prestige and is essentially becoming like another form of high school. I definitely can feel it and understand it. Times are a changing in this world; be it in my own little realm of existence and in the greater scope of things. It is some what frightening, but I am okay with the uncertainty. Maybe I am just getting older that I've come to terms with it all, or maybe it is myself just willing to accept what may come in my path.