y do i feel like this?
u know, the last couple of dayz 4 me has been very hard, nuttin can seem to go right. ive passed up so many many good opprotunities to be happy, but my mond plays trix n me, i try so hard to be happy, but something or someone fucks it up!...jus the other day i was chattin wit my ex, and she made me feel like shit, she called me a liar...a liar. yea..y?...i dont know, she said i was fake and i didnt keep it real wit her. u know she told me if i ever need to tell her something to tell her and she'll understand....so i did,and she left me, i wouldnt blame her. no one wants a man wo has nuttin...but she called me a liar and a fake, i kept it real and told her how i felt and for some reason she said i dont want a relationship wit no one,well im not lookin 4 one, but wuteer happens,happens!...u cant stop fate..im a real person, and i keep it real. yea i met a cool gurl online,doesnt mean nuttin,even if i do want somethin,hey its the way i feel. yeah, im attracted to her, shes beatiful,smart,head is straight and has one of the biggest sence of humors that i know. but doest mean that she can jus come and my face and call me a liar,its fucked up. she doest know my life and i how i feel about people...and she aint gonnna change it.....well at least i wont let her. im jus mentally and emotionally confused... and i do need help, but i dont need no one to bring me down..no one...