"she thinks that happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway"
so the prettiest song i've ever heard has got to be Matchbox 20- 3am, the acoustic piano version...
its rediculously good and i have it on repeat.
well i'm back at school now.. and its nice to be back and on my own again.. away from parents and their problems...
but then again, school's just... okay. theres nothing really exciting happening yet.. maybe this weekend i'm hoping something will happen.. i have only been here for 2 days, but in the same respect.. i feel like its just so much more different than last year and i feel like the "fun" factor has gone down....
if that makes sense at all.
i'm really hoping that once classes are done and everything, i can go out and party and have fun, meet guys.. cuz everyone knows i'm rediculously lonely. and in need of someone to love again.
but thats the story of my life all the time.. i have what i've always been searching for, and then somehow i find a way to screw it up and things never to be the same again...
i think that being here at school is so weird because i have mostly all girl friends here and while i was at home, i have mostly all guy friends.. which i like better... i just relate better and can have a good time... it just seems like the guys here are really superficial and want to hang out with the "girly girls" .... fuck them..
i'm better than that.
well i'm in a weird mood, and i can't wait for my physics class for 4 1/2 hours... kill me.
i think i might just go to the gym 2-3 times a day... that'll occupy my time better than this persistant boringness.
its rediculously good and i have it on repeat.
well i'm back at school now.. and its nice to be back and on my own again.. away from parents and their problems...
but then again, school's just... okay. theres nothing really exciting happening yet.. maybe this weekend i'm hoping something will happen.. i have only been here for 2 days, but in the same respect.. i feel like its just so much more different than last year and i feel like the "fun" factor has gone down....
if that makes sense at all.
i'm really hoping that once classes are done and everything, i can go out and party and have fun, meet guys.. cuz everyone knows i'm rediculously lonely. and in need of someone to love again.
but thats the story of my life all the time.. i have what i've always been searching for, and then somehow i find a way to screw it up and things never to be the same again...
i think that being here at school is so weird because i have mostly all girl friends here and while i was at home, i have mostly all guy friends.. which i like better... i just relate better and can have a good time... it just seems like the guys here are really superficial and want to hang out with the "girly girls" .... fuck them..
i'm better than that.
well i'm in a weird mood, and i can't wait for my physics class for 4 1/2 hours... kill me.
i think i might just go to the gym 2-3 times a day... that'll occupy my time better than this persistant boringness.