"Finally content with the past I regret"
I just had the craziest dream ever.
It started out where I was in a restraunt eating with someone but I never got around to ordering cuz I had to go pee... so I went to the bathroom and there were like 6 stalls.. but everyone was only using one.. so I had to wait in line... when it finally became my turn to go it felt like it took me forever.
After peeing I went back to the table and the person I was with already had ordered and was eating pizza... there were 2 personal pizzas on the table.. one was with green peppers and olives and the other was strictly cheese... then there was french fries on the table too... Finally the waitress came over to me and I ordered a salad too.
From there it jumped to me and someone else up on a roof.. but it was over a cliff.. there was no house it was just the roof.. So then I went to the edge of the roof and looked over the edge and got a bad "afraid of heights" feeling in my stomach and then went back to the top... then me and this girl i was sitting with talked a little bit.. and then i got back up and went towards the end again.. except this time I fell off and as I was looking up back at the top of the roof, ET flew by in the sky on his bike and that scared the crap out of me which gave me the extra boost off the roof.
I ended up falling to my death holding onto some sort of box/computer looking thing as a cushion beneath me. From there it went to my funeral. There were a lot of people there but not quite as many as expected... from then I turned ghost-ish and flew up and down and around where ever I could
then people started showing up at this small little room where the funeral was and i started crying uncontrollably... i saw my friends, my parents, and my friend's parents all extremely upset and it made me cry... I told the one person that could see me to tell my friend's parents that I'm sorry.
then all of a sudden people could see me again but I stil had the ability to move quickly and all this othere supernatural things. then i remember talking to my mom and asking if kevin was coming cuz i hadnt seen him.. and she told me that he was there and that he was coming back later with a box of something...
then after that it kind of skipped into an alley of some sort and kevin was there with this box of something and he was crying... and then he went down these stairs with my mom that kind of looked like a stairway to the subway... so i wanted to follow them to see where they were going and then these 2 cats cut me off.. one was big and orange.. and the other was a siamese cat with 2 heads.
I hate cats so naturally I backed away and got upset because i just wanted to tell them that i love them and will always love them but i felt like i never got the chance... I didn't know how much longer I was going to be able to be seen... and i just wanted to tell them that i love them.
then i woke up. how depressing?! so weird.
things like that make me think that i'm gonna have a short life... I worry that something terrible is going to happen and i'll never et married, i'll never have kids, i'll never grow old.... just die young and hopeless. it's weird. just makes me think now how important everything in life really is.. and that the stupid things that i thought mattered, really are insignificant when it comes to the big picture.
hmmm.. anyways, last night was fun... i'd say the highlight was:
- watching jon pick up courtney and violently thrust himself into her..... twice. :)
It started out where I was in a restraunt eating with someone but I never got around to ordering cuz I had to go pee... so I went to the bathroom and there were like 6 stalls.. but everyone was only using one.. so I had to wait in line... when it finally became my turn to go it felt like it took me forever.
After peeing I went back to the table and the person I was with already had ordered and was eating pizza... there were 2 personal pizzas on the table.. one was with green peppers and olives and the other was strictly cheese... then there was french fries on the table too... Finally the waitress came over to me and I ordered a salad too.
From there it jumped to me and someone else up on a roof.. but it was over a cliff.. there was no house it was just the roof.. So then I went to the edge of the roof and looked over the edge and got a bad "afraid of heights" feeling in my stomach and then went back to the top... then me and this girl i was sitting with talked a little bit.. and then i got back up and went towards the end again.. except this time I fell off and as I was looking up back at the top of the roof, ET flew by in the sky on his bike and that scared the crap out of me which gave me the extra boost off the roof.
I ended up falling to my death holding onto some sort of box/computer looking thing as a cushion beneath me. From there it went to my funeral. There were a lot of people there but not quite as many as expected... from then I turned ghost-ish and flew up and down and around where ever I could
then people started showing up at this small little room where the funeral was and i started crying uncontrollably... i saw my friends, my parents, and my friend's parents all extremely upset and it made me cry... I told the one person that could see me to tell my friend's parents that I'm sorry.
then all of a sudden people could see me again but I stil had the ability to move quickly and all this othere supernatural things. then i remember talking to my mom and asking if kevin was coming cuz i hadnt seen him.. and she told me that he was there and that he was coming back later with a box of something...
then after that it kind of skipped into an alley of some sort and kevin was there with this box of something and he was crying... and then he went down these stairs with my mom that kind of looked like a stairway to the subway... so i wanted to follow them to see where they were going and then these 2 cats cut me off.. one was big and orange.. and the other was a siamese cat with 2 heads.
I hate cats so naturally I backed away and got upset because i just wanted to tell them that i love them and will always love them but i felt like i never got the chance... I didn't know how much longer I was going to be able to be seen... and i just wanted to tell them that i love them.
then i woke up. how depressing?! so weird.
things like that make me think that i'm gonna have a short life... I worry that something terrible is going to happen and i'll never et married, i'll never have kids, i'll never grow old.... just die young and hopeless. it's weird. just makes me think now how important everything in life really is.. and that the stupid things that i thought mattered, really are insignificant when it comes to the big picture.
hmmm.. anyways, last night was fun... i'd say the highlight was:
- watching jon pick up courtney and violently thrust himself into her..... twice. :)