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Death, next to Love, is a trivial thing.
I love my wife Juli. I love her family. So much so that we moved out here to NC, so that she could be with her mother. Her mother has cancer. In the past week we've come to realize that her cancer is spreading. She has only a few months left. This past week has been alot of talk of funeral arrangements, hospice care, life support. Nurses coming in and out of the house. Staying up late nights consoling my wife, checking on her mother in the next room to see if she needs anything. It's to the point now that I don't want to go to sleep if no one else is going to be up to check on her. Feeling the suffering of not only Juli, but her Father, her Brother and all of her family members.
I haven't had any real time to think of my own feelings. I have to fight to stay positive and keep my eyes on the light. Because after any darkness the light always comes, and sometimes when you're not ready, the light can hit you just as hard as the darkness. So much to think about, keep up with, juggle, maintain, focus, and deal with, emotionally, mentally, physically. It's taken a toll on all of us.
There's so much more going on right now. So much I cannot express in words in any form. It's just so much. So much to deal with. So much to sort through.
In the end, I can still see it. I still see the light. I still see the positive side of things. I see the strengthening of it. I recognize death in a positive light. A release back to the light. I see how it brings people closer. Strengthens peoples resolves. Acts as a dramatic example to help people change their lives. Brings a family together. And highlights the fact that life is so precious and must be lived to the fullest. But still it's very difficult to deal with. And that's all you can do right now. Stay positive, deal with it.
I will be strong enough for Juli and her family as they go through this process. I must be. It helps also to know that there is a whole other state (Texas) with whole other people (WTW) working on things. I like hearing about Andrew and Tabije and the guys shooting footage. I love that the guys got together with Crystal and Angi to put some footage together. I like knowing that things are moving forward. Because as certain as death may come for us all, life is already coming for us, and we must be prepared for it. Prepared to live and to let others know about the wonders, the beauty, and the excitement in life, and that you've got to recognize it and live it.
But God damn this it's hard as hell though.
In other news.
The Halloween Video, Dinosaur Killers, and other shorts are going to be delayed. I'll still be working on what I can, cuz staying productive and creative helps me, but what with everything going on, on top of I'm sick, and I have to keep up with the day job, it's hard to put a deadline on anything.
I hope anybody in the DFW area will be able to make it to the October 26th Fort Worth screening of our horror comedy movie THE MIDNIGHT SPECIAL. More info at http://www.monstercops.com
Also if anyone happens to be in the Washington DC metro area, THE MIDNIGHT SPECIAL will also be screening on October 29th at the Cinema Arts Theatre in Fairfax, VA. As part of The Spooky Movie Film Festival.
For those of you already in the know of what's been going on. Thank you for your support. Your prayers mean alot.
I love my wife Juli. I love her family. So much so that we moved out here to NC, so that she could be with her mother. Her mother has cancer. In the past week we've come to realize that her cancer is spreading. She has only a few months left. This past week has been alot of talk of funeral arrangements, hospice care, life support. Nurses coming in and out of the house. Staying up late nights consoling my wife, checking on her mother in the next room to see if she needs anything. It's to the point now that I don't want to go to sleep if no one else is going to be up to check on her. Feeling the suffering of not only Juli, but her Father, her Brother and all of her family members.
I haven't had any real time to think of my own feelings. I have to fight to stay positive and keep my eyes on the light. Because after any darkness the light always comes, and sometimes when you're not ready, the light can hit you just as hard as the darkness. So much to think about, keep up with, juggle, maintain, focus, and deal with, emotionally, mentally, physically. It's taken a toll on all of us.
There's so much more going on right now. So much I cannot express in words in any form. It's just so much. So much to deal with. So much to sort through.
In the end, I can still see it. I still see the light. I still see the positive side of things. I see the strengthening of it. I recognize death in a positive light. A release back to the light. I see how it brings people closer. Strengthens peoples resolves. Acts as a dramatic example to help people change their lives. Brings a family together. And highlights the fact that life is so precious and must be lived to the fullest. But still it's very difficult to deal with. And that's all you can do right now. Stay positive, deal with it.
I will be strong enough for Juli and her family as they go through this process. I must be. It helps also to know that there is a whole other state (Texas) with whole other people (WTW) working on things. I like hearing about Andrew and Tabije and the guys shooting footage. I love that the guys got together with Crystal and Angi to put some footage together. I like knowing that things are moving forward. Because as certain as death may come for us all, life is already coming for us, and we must be prepared for it. Prepared to live and to let others know about the wonders, the beauty, and the excitement in life, and that you've got to recognize it and live it.
But God damn this it's hard as hell though.
In other news.
The Halloween Video, Dinosaur Killers, and other shorts are going to be delayed. I'll still be working on what I can, cuz staying productive and creative helps me, but what with everything going on, on top of I'm sick, and I have to keep up with the day job, it's hard to put a deadline on anything.
I hope anybody in the DFW area will be able to make it to the October 26th Fort Worth screening of our horror comedy movie THE MIDNIGHT SPECIAL. More info at http://www.monstercops.com
Also if anyone happens to be in the Washington DC metro area, THE MIDNIGHT SPECIAL will also be screening on October 29th at the Cinema Arts Theatre in Fairfax, VA. As part of The Spooky Movie Film Festival.
For those of you already in the know of what's been going on. Thank you for your support. Your prayers mean alot.