who let the dogs out?
I'm not going to complain... I'm not going to complain...
I keep telling myself these things and yet, I'm complaining.
I got off work an hour or so ago, it's 3 am. I worked 30 hours in the past 3 days. ROUGH. Not complaining about work... complaining that I can't get off from work.
My parents are going out of town randomly (because they can do that stuff) to Mexico, to the beach house. My favorite vacation. Going with my Aunt and Uncle. I'm pissed because they know I'm here so I can take care of the dog so they are free to leave. I think it sucks especially because I can't go nor would I be able to even forsee a vacation in my future because of stupid work.
Other reason I'm complaining... this tour my boy is going on was supposed to be 6 weeks long. Now it's turing into 2 months... 2 weeks longer. Now instead of being gone August and part of September and maybe being back on the 15th, most likely gone for all of September is my guess. I'm trying to be happy. I'm trying to be supportive. But I'm having a hard time not being selfish. I'm not looking forward to it at all. I only wonder if it will change things, not from his perspective, but from mine. KNowing who I am.. who is to know how I will feel about this until it happens.
I'll get overmyself and be happy eventually. I must warm up to the idea first.
I just seriously need something nice to happen to me :(
I keep telling myself these things and yet, I'm complaining.
I got off work an hour or so ago, it's 3 am. I worked 30 hours in the past 3 days. ROUGH. Not complaining about work... complaining that I can't get off from work.
My parents are going out of town randomly (because they can do that stuff) to Mexico, to the beach house. My favorite vacation. Going with my Aunt and Uncle. I'm pissed because they know I'm here so I can take care of the dog so they are free to leave. I think it sucks especially because I can't go nor would I be able to even forsee a vacation in my future because of stupid work.
Other reason I'm complaining... this tour my boy is going on was supposed to be 6 weeks long. Now it's turing into 2 months... 2 weeks longer. Now instead of being gone August and part of September and maybe being back on the 15th, most likely gone for all of September is my guess. I'm trying to be happy. I'm trying to be supportive. But I'm having a hard time not being selfish. I'm not looking forward to it at all. I only wonder if it will change things, not from his perspective, but from mine. KNowing who I am.. who is to know how I will feel about this until it happens.
I'll get overmyself and be happy eventually. I must warm up to the idea first.
I just seriously need something nice to happen to me :(