Absence makes the heart grow fonder?

[ex_lovesbitc93]

It was almost dawn by the time I reached the safety of the lobby of the block of flats I’d been staying in. Seemed I’d stopped giving a toss about getting home before the nasty sun these days, not like I had anything to go home to save a bottle of Jack and early morning bloody telly shows. Which were worse now, than they’d ever been; Passions had

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[ex_lovesbitc93]

I felt her tense up when I said it, I don’t know why. She came back to me didn’t she, was it something we weren’t suppose to talk about or…

"Stop….Stop making it about them."

Then I felt her pushing me off her, or trying to and not in a fun playful way, either. Anger and hurt lanced through me. Why couldn’t she say it? S’pose I was bloody right, wasn’t I? I was just something to fill in the time, she’d been gone soon… just like before. Well, bugger her and bugger that. I’d show her who she bloody well belonged to.

“Not making it about them,” I said angrily, grabbing her wrists and pinning them over her head as I started to fuck her harder. “Making it about us, why the bloody hell can’t you say it? Why can’t you ever choose me over them? Over him?”

I was thrusting into her so hard now the bed was rocking, I didn’t even care if I was hurting her. “We’re going to spend some time tonight refreshing your memory about some things, love,” I panted, still rocking into her and holding her wrists above her head.

I leaned forward and kissed her softly. “You’re gonna learn who you belong to, even if you don’t love me.”

[sexytarawitch]

He grabbed my wrists and pinned me down, it was something I knew he'd do and it didn't surprise me as he started to push into me harder. I cried out and sobbed softly as he pounded into me, the bed shaking so hard I thought it was going to break in two.

“We’re going to spend some time tonight refreshing your memory about some things, love,”

The grip got tighter on my wrists and I tried to move, pull him off of me but I was so worn out and weak that I couldn't. He kept slamming into me, making me sob and beg him to stop. I didn't want to make it about us verse them, he was doing that.

“Making it about us, why the bloody hell can’t you say it? Why can’t you ever choose me over them? Over him?”

"I'm here, I came back." I gasped, biting my lip and arching my back, desperate to get out from under him. "I did chose you, Spike..." But why couldn't he get that I'd still care?

“You’re gonna learn who you belong to, even if you don’t love me.”

My eyes narrowed and I pulled away from his lips. "How could I love a posessive pathetic asshole like you?" I hissed, trying to move my thighs and push him off of me with my knees. "You're pathetic Spike. No wonder Dru left you." I growled, my eyes burning into his.

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“You bitch!” I spat angrily, but inside I felt more hurt than angry. All I wanted was for her to bloody… but then again I s’pose she was right, Dru left ‘cause I couldn’t leave it along, couldn’t bare to share her with her precious Daddy, no matter how far away he was. The hurt I felt increased and I felt myself start to lose control. I didn’t want it to be like this, I wanted it to be us, just us, she could’ve made them go away in a matter of words… it was all I wanted. But now…

Before I knew it I’d slapped her harshly across the face and began fucking her hard again.

“It can’t ever be just us, can it?”

I pulled out of her and flipped her over, pressing myself down on top of her and pinning her arms to her sides. “You’re all I want,” I said into her hair. “The only thing I’ll ever want. Why…fuck Tara why aren’t I good enough for you?”

The hurt was raging inside again and the only way I knew how to make it go away was to give it back to her. Lifting my body slightly I pushed my cock against her opening and started to enter her.

[sexytarawitch]

He slapped me and I tasted blood, my eyes burning as I tried to move out from under him. He pinned me down on my stomach, leaving me helpless under him, his voice filled with anger and hurt.

“You’re all I want...The only thing I’ll ever want. Why…fuck Tara why aren’t I good enough for you?”

I felt him move over me and I tried to move out from under him even more, squirming and gasping as he pinned my hands with one hand and wrapped his other hand around my neck, keeping me pressed against the bed. "Spike...no, stop." I hissed, trying to kick my feet up and push him off of me, the pain shooting through me as he continued to press into me. "Why can't you get that I'll care for him like you do her? But that doesn't...oh god stop...That doesn't mean that I don't love you. I'm here with you aren't I?"

Nothing I say or do is getting through to him, I feel his hand tighten on my throat and I lick my lips, gasping and squirming, wanting this all to stop.

[ex_lovesbitc93]

"Why can't you get that I'll care for him like you do her? But that doesn't...oh god stop...That doesn't mean that I don't love you. I'm here with you aren't I?"

“Only part of you is here love, that’s the problem.”

She better not be talking about Dru, because that didn’t bloody compare. I could hurt her now, a lot, I wanted to, but I also wanted her to stay. God, I bloody hated women sometimes.

“You’ve been gone six fucking years, Tara,” I said, pushing into her until I was completely inside her tight little ass. “Don’t you think if I gave a flying fuck about Dru that’d I’d’ve gone back to her long ago? But no, I waited for you, because you were the only thing to me…”

The hurt was back again, and the anger, but I couldn’t help smelling her scent, seeing her beneath me and being bloody ecstatic that she was back. Still.

“You can’t even bring yourself to lie to me, can you?” I asked, beginning to move inside her. “Did you let him fuck you like this?” Bet she bloody did, even though it was ours… bet she let him have her every which way.

[sexytarawitch]

He was angry and started beating into me, thrusting hard and rough, nearly enough to make me bleed if I fought him. I swallowed hard and fisted my hands in the sheets tightly, his weight pressing down onto me and pushing himself deeper into me. "Fuck....You should have gone back to her...but she didn't want you." I smirked. "Maybe I'm the one that's insane, I still want you...fuck!"

“You can’t even bring yourself to lie to me, can you? Did you let him fuck you like this?”

My frustration turned to anger and rage, everyting inside me aching and the way he spoke... I growled and pushed back against him, feeling him tear into me again and again. "Yes." I hissed, knowing that we were into the anger portion of our getting back together. "They both did, sometimes one after the other, sometimes watching and...ohhh fuck...sometimes together." I hissed, rolling my eyes and groaning, feeling him deep into me. "Mmmm I remember one night Lindsey made me sit on his lap, riding his thick cock in my ass and oh god, Angelus made me call him Daddy before he raped my throat..." I moaned and whimpered, pushing back against Spike and closing my eyes, feeling every nerve inside me become raw and intense.

[ex_lovesbitc93]

The bitch. God, for a moment I almost hated her…only for a moment though. Pain lanced through me at the idea of them using her like that when I was sat here, alone and missing her. The bitch and those sodding wankers. If I ever saw them again, I’d….

But what was the point of getting angry? After all, it was just what she wanted.

“That’s what I’ve always loved about you Tara, you’re so sweet. See its sweet the way you thought - probably still think - that was all about you.” I kept on fucking her hard, if she wanted to hurt me, then I could hurt her right the hell back.

“Have to give it to Lindsey, he’s bloody smart. Making you think he was fucking you while he was raping your ass and looking straight at the man he really wanted. Did he whisper ‘Angelus’ when he came inside you?”

“And Daddy, well that was always Dru’s pet name for Angelus. Funny how you’re always a replacement for her, isn’t it?”

Yeah, lets see how she bloody liked a tasted of her own medicine.

[sexytarawitch]

“Have to give it to Lindsey, he’s bloody smart. Making you think he was fucking you while he was raping your ass and looking straight at the man he really wanted. Did he whisper ‘Angelus’ when he came inside you?”

Bastard. He went from mean to hurtful and it was too much for me to take. We were both stubborn and this was getting us nowhere but hurt. Both of us.

“And Daddy, well that was always Dru’s pet name for Angelus. Funny how you’re always a replacement for her, isn’t it?”

"It's about time you admitted it you fuck." I hissed, using whatever I had in me to toss him off of me, sending him off the bed till I was laying over him. I wrapped my hand around his cock hard and and stroked him nearly painfully hard. "Not to mention he made sure I knew why. Wanna know why lover? Because that's what you were. Bastard did everything to take your place..."

I leaned in and hissed in his ear. "I bet you're wondering if it worked...I'm not telling..." I taunted, knowing that it didn't but not wanting to tell him that.

Narrowing my eyes I glared at him. "It's about time you came out and told me that I was your replacement for her. Only took you half of near forever."

[ex_lovesbitc93]

Guess I hit a nerve then, seemed like it on account I was currently flying through the air and landing on my ass across the room. I had to give it to her, no matter how much she pissed me off, how much she hurt me she still made me love her. She was just so bloody beautiful when she was angry.

"Not to mention he made sure I knew why. Wanna know why lover? Because that's what you were. Bastard did everything to take your place..."

Then she was on top of me and prattling on, it was a bit hard catch all she was saying though, when she had my sodding dick in a vice grip.

“Fuuuck,” I groaned, as she bent down to whisper more hurtful things in my ear.

"I bet you're wondering if it worked...I'm not telling... It's about time you came out and told me that I was your replacement for her. Only took you half of near forever."

“Ooh, hit a nerve did I, pet?” I asked, trying to keep the pain out of my voice, it was physical as well as emotional right now, but the latter still won. I hated that she wouldn’t choose me over them. The bitch. But then again, she was getting might het up over what I said about Dru. I smirked at her as she looked down at me. Could it be that she was just being the stubborn bitch she always was about this too? A bloke could hope. But still, the thought she was just trying to save face by not saying so perked my spirits up a and the anger was starting to subside. Hell, we couldn’t get back together without a fight, it just wasn’t how it worked with us.

I grabbed her shoulders, flipping her onto her back before straddling her before bending down to whisper against her soft mouth.

“Remember that first night I took you,” I whispered, sprinkling little kisses over her skin. “You were so sweet, quivering little thing you were, but so ripe and ready for it… and all those things you let me do to you, do you remember? I fucking feasted on you that night and you didn’t even make a squeak of protest.” I stretched out, pressing my body against hers. “I was your first, don’t forget it and you were my first too, do you know that?”

I reached down and lifted her leg, wrapping it ‘round my body.

“First woman who ever loved me, trusted me, wanted just me. You understand, don’t you kitten?”

[sexytarawitch]

He flipped us over, leaving me pinned to the floor under him, my body squirming under his body and making me ache.

“Remember that first night I took you...You were so sweet, quivering little thing you were, but so ripe and ready for it… and all those things you let me do to you, do you remember? I fucking feasted on you that night and you didn’t even make a squeak of protest. I was your first, don’t forget it and you were my first too, do you know that?”

I purred softly and arched my back to him, moaning and whimpering as he kissed over my skin and making me burn. "Oh god Spike." I whimpered, a small smile crossing my lips as I remembered that night. "God yes, I remember that. I gave myself to you fully for one reason." I moved my hands over his shoulders and drug my nails down his chest. "I wanted you, I loved you so much even though I wouldn't admit it. You were inside me in every way, I just wanted you." I smirked and whispered in his ear. "Would have done anything you asked...anything."

“First woman who ever loved me, trusted me, wanted just me. You understand, don’t you kitten?”

He wrapped my thigh around him and I nodded, arching up and shifting my hips till I felt him slip inside me. "Oh god." I shuddered under him, threading my fingers in his hair and pulled his lips to me for a deep kiss. "Always want you Sire...always. I love you William." I hated he doubted that, I hated it so much.

[ex_lovesbitc93]

Looked like she was coming ‘round again, and I was too, forgetting all the hurtful things we’d been saying to each other and remembering why I loved her. It was all part and parcel of us getting back together though, the fighting, the hurting, the pain, and maybe it always would be. Besides, it made moments like this even better, so maybe it was all worth it.

"Always want you Sire...always. I love you William." I

I groaned at her words and at the feeling of my cock gliding into her wet pussy. Her legs were wrapped around me now and it felt like home. It was home.

“God, me too love,” I panted, rocking my hips and cupping a breast in my hand, kneading it and rubbing my thumb over her pebbled nipple. She cried out and I kissed her, glad that all the fighting was over… for now at least.

“Tomorrow we’ll burn everything, the whole sodding flat…and start anew…. New flat, new city, new everthing, yeah? Does it sound good, my love?” I asked, my thrusts becoming faster as I neared the same edge that she was teetering on.

[sexytarawitch]

My eyes rolled back and I wrapped my legs around his waist, feeling him pressing deeper into me, everything inside me raw and filled with want.

He grabbed my hips and started to thrust harder into me, making me groan and whimper as he fucked me into the floor so hard my body was going to have bruises in the morning.

“Tomorrow we’ll burn everything, the whole sodding flat…and start anew…. New flat, new city, new everthing, yeah? Does it sound good, my love?”

I moaned and nodded, digging my nails into his skin and flipping us over. "New starts are very nice." I grinned and sat up, leaning up and rocking down onto him; riding him slow and deep. "Maybe we can go back to LA, check the old haunts." I grunted, sitting up and riding him harder. "Maybe we can go to Sunnydale and take over." I purred, hissing and rocking onto him harder as he started pawing my breasts.

[ex_lovesbitc93]

She flipped us over, my strong, beautiful, wicked girl, and I grinned up at her stupidly. Now that we’d had our little spat I felt better than I had in ages. Better than I had since she’d gone. The sight of her straddling me, pleasuring herself on my cock didn’t hurt either.

"New starts are very nice….Maybe we can go back to LA, check the old haunts. Maybe we can go to Sunnydale and take over."

Couldn’t say I fancied the idea of LA that much. Too many bloody stupid memories. But Sunnydale…well, that was a different story. One I liked a lot more. I ran my hand up Tara’s body and cupped her beautiful tits, playing with them while she fucked us both into oblivion. She was moving so fast over me that she felt hot around my cock, just like the old days and I reached down with one hand to rub her clit, knowing she was close.

“Sunnydale sounds more like my cup of tea, love,” I panted, feeling my balls start to tingle as I sped towards the edge I knew she was on. “Maybe we could see if that tree’s still about….you remember that tree don’t you, kitten? The one I held you against that night, while I fucked your pretty, warm pussy?”

I grasped her hips as she drover herself down on me again and again.

“Remember how you whimpered, begging for more? Always want more, don’t you pet?”

[sexytarawitch]

“Sunnydale sounds more like my cup of tea, love... Maybe we could see if that tree’s still about….you remember that tree don’t you, kitten? The one I held you against that night, while I fucked your pretty, warm pussy?”

I knew he wouldn't be all for going to LA, too many memories of him losing me. I knew he didn't want to be reminded of it; that was ok with me. The less we fought the better, we already had enough as it was.

“Remember how you whimpered, begging for more? Always want more, don’t you pet?”

Moaning I tightened my thighs around his hips. "Fuck yes, god I remembered that night." I remember all the hurt and pain that happened, that was also his first meeting with my boy. Pushing the bad things away I grinned at the memory. "I still feel your fingers between my thighs sometimes...I remembered how you made me walk back with you with no panties..." I drug my nails over his skin. "Do you remember that, baby?"

[ex_lovesbitc93]

“Yeah I remember,” I grunted, still thrusting into her. I was close. So close. “I had ‘em in my pocket if I recall…then…back at the crypt. Remember what I did to you?”

I bent down and kissed her roughly, shifting a bit so I could get better leverage to fuck her even harder. God I was so close and as usual her smell, the feel of her, just bloody looking at her and knowing she was mine again was driving me crazy with need and lust.

“You were such a little slut. So hot for it, remember?”

I grabbed her thigh, digging my fingers into the supple flesh and thrust into her once, twice, three times more before I let go and came, coating her insides with my come.

“Fuck, I missed you so much Tara,” I panted, still thrusting into her, still unbelievably hard. “Love you so much. Come for me, kitten.”