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some of my favorite quotes.
by me.
12/29/06
"i know i bitch about the drama a lot
but if i didnt have it i'd get so bored.
so friends keep hating me
boys keep screwing me over
friends girlfriends keep bitching at me
cause i honestly cant get enough of it."
12/26/06
"the only thing i'm good for is a good laugh, a good time, & a goodbye."
11/28/06
"people can only hurt you if you let them, like you said, but i kinda think they can only love you if you let them"
11/23/06
"i want to have something meaningful for once.
i want someone that i care about
and who cares about me
i want to have someone who i can just be with
and who i can always go to
but i really dont know if it'll ever happen & that scares me.
i hate looking around at all the happy people i know
because i'm not happy.
i'm not happy at all."
11/06/06
"What is real? Does it mean having things that buzz inside of you and stick out like a handle?"
"Real isn't how you're made. It's things that happen to you when a child loves you for a long long time. Not just to play with, but REALLY loves you. Then you become real."
"Does it hurt?"
"Sometimes. When you're real, you don't mind being hurt."
"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up? Or bit by bit?"
"It doesn't happen all at once. You become. It takes a long time, that's why it doesn't happen to people who break easily, or who have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out, and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are real, you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand." - the velveteen rabbit
10/29/06
" i'm selfish sometimes
i acknowledge it
& i'm not proud of it.
but you know what?
no one else is looking out for me
so i guess i have to.
the only thing i can think of right now
is how i cant depend on anyone
& yeah thats upsetting
but the sooner i realize it
the less disappointed i'll be when people let me down."
10/23/06
"i wish i could just sink into something.
& know that everything is gonna be okay.
i dont wanna think constantly
& i dont want to worry anymore."
10/10/06
"i want to love someone so much that i forget what its like to not be in love."
10/02/06
"i wish i didnt always feel like an after thought.
or just so replaceable.
& forgettable.
& i know its selfish to say
but i do wanna be that person who someone, anyone cares about the most.
because all i ever feel is rejection
& like i'm not worth anything
& i want so much for that not to be true
but no ones really going out of their way to make me believe that."
9/25/06
"i care.
but clearly i've been doing that wrong.
so you need to tell me whether i should care more
or less.
cause i couldnt stop if i tried."
8/27/06
" all i wanna do is talk to him
& when i talk to him i wanna see him
& when i see him i wanna...do things to him
& its all very bad."
8/08/06
"so i've been going about it all wrong.
i think i was expecting happiness to fall out of the sky & land right in front of me
but then i'll just be waiting forever.
nope.
i've got to make myself happy."
7/11/06
"the instinct to run, to back away, or give up
to need, want, reach, steal
the feeling to always want more, & to take more
the loss of breath at the sight of a car accident
to drive by, never being able to feel satisfied
& to reject anyone who tries
& this is my life."
7/03/06
"i've never had the thought of someone make me so happy and so sad at the same time"
5/30/06
" is it weird that i find so much joy in other peoples unhappiness?
i like watching other peoples relationships fall apart.
i do it with a smile on my face.
i think i feed off of the disappointment of others just because i've gotten so used to the taste of my own."
5/29/06
hilare
"i'm melissa . i'm a junior & i party constantly . i like being sarcastic . my friends and family are my life . i like fireworks, holding hands, and carvel ice cream cake more than any person should . my biggest fears are [in no particular order] bugs, the dark, clowns, the gorillaz, and pissing off mel's mom . i hate girls who are obsessed with their boyfriends . i throw the word gay around like its my job . i pretty much pee my pants whenever it says that someone uses myspace for serious relationships . i criticize people (and myself) way too much but i'm okay with that . i hate friendstealers . for serious, get your own . if you're not touchy feely you might as well not even try to be friends with me . i love physical contact (shutup) . my profession is camerawhoring . seriously . do it with me sometime its fun . i'm not going to college cause i'm too stupid . i'm also not getting married cause no one likes me . if you can get me drunk you'd be pretty cool in my book . i pretend i can play the piano even though the only song i can actually play is brick by ben folds . but no joke, i rock at it (for the most part) . i'm probably the worst singer on the face of the planet, but i love to do it really loudly and obnoxiously . preferably in the car where you cant escape . i do not dance . unless its for kevins birthday and is something i choreographed myself . take me to concerts . it would really creep me out if a complete stranger knew my favorite color . i mean, i might as well be inviting them into my bedroom . i'd really like to undress jake epstein one day . iF yOu TyPe LiKe ThIs...i have to give you props cause that shit takes effort . dont talk to me like that though . i'll be forced to punch you as hard as i can in the face . i have 5 parents . i say fuck more than i should . i broke a mirror over the summer and i've been suffering the consequences ever since . actually i was pushed into a mirror by mel . that was real cool of you . i hate people who think they're better than everyone else . i dont care if you're smarter than me cause you're ugly . i have the best comebacks in the world . i watch jeopardy more than you . and i'm proud of it . dont think you're cool if you listen to music that no one else likes . thats cause it sucks . if i havent already, i will eventually have a hardcore conversation with you about old school nick . i dont get over people . friends or otherwise . i just pretend to . i dont trust anyone . roswell is probably the best show i've ever seen in my life . its an experience really . i miss stalking paul . i have no problem saying i told you so . pretty much cause people dont listen to me ever and i like to rub it in on the rare occasions when i'm right . i can smell oranges from miles away . i will die from either overdosing on advil or getting choked from my beads . if you have a death wish, call me in the morning . cause i will kill you . put your boobs away . no seriously, no one needs to see that . being in a relationship with me is probably the worst idea anyone could possibly have . i'm terrible at the whole girlfriend thing . i call myself gay a lot even though lesbians freak me out like crazy . and i dont mean girls who get with their friends because they think that'll make boys notice them . i mean hardcore, butch, hairy legged, deep voiced lesbians . i love when boys sleep over . i secretly like ashlee simpson . i have no desire to impress you . if you like me, you like me . if you dont...well thats too bad . i'll survive . i change my aim profile every wednesday and saturday . i'd rather be friends with guys than with girls cause they're less bitchy . i write emo things in my livejournal (www.livejournal.com/users/one_orange_Sock) . and regular things in my xanga (www.xanga.com/one_orange_sock) . if you think i complain to you too much shut up . and give jamie a medal . the only two people i've ever hated have the same birthday . and that really creeps me out . never ever use smiley faces when talking to me online/leaving me comment or something . it annoys the shit out of me . i've never built a snowman . i scare really easily . and i scream . the only thing i really want is a boy who likes eve 6 & third eye blind . thats not asking for too much is it? . i love meeting new people . but new people dont like meeting me cause i'm loud & stuff . i know that i wont have my high school friends forever . & it makes me cry because i love them with all of my heart . they're the most amazing people you could ever hope to meet . i'm pretty sure thats all you need to/more than you cared to know about me
like o-m-g get at me
noiseandkisses m"
5/19/06
"noiseandkisses m (2:54:45 PM): oh
noiseandkisses m (2:54:46 PM): my
noiseandkisses m (2:54:47 PM): god
noiseandkisses m (2:54:54 PM): this is the sound of me shooting myself in the face
Roxmisox123 (2:55:12 PM): i dont hear anything...
noiseandkisses m (2:55:20 PM): sorry cant talk
noiseandkisses m (2:55:29 PM): i've just taken a massive bullet wound to the head
noiseandkisses m (2:55:33 PM): and i'll be dying shortly"
5/14/06
"she'll take fighting chances
run head first into a brick wall
cause what doesnt kill her
makes it all just seem much closer."
4/09/06
"i'm happy.
like actually, legitimately happy
i almost forgot what it was like
& tomorrow something will probably send me into another downward spiral
but right here
right now
i'm happy"
by me.
12/29/06
"i know i bitch about the drama a lot
but if i didnt have it i'd get so bored.
so friends keep hating me
boys keep screwing me over
friends girlfriends keep bitching at me
cause i honestly cant get enough of it."
12/26/06
"the only thing i'm good for is a good laugh, a good time, & a goodbye."
11/28/06
"people can only hurt you if you let them, like you said, but i kinda think they can only love you if you let them"
11/23/06
"i want to have something meaningful for once.
i want someone that i care about
and who cares about me
i want to have someone who i can just be with
and who i can always go to
but i really dont know if it'll ever happen & that scares me.
i hate looking around at all the happy people i know
because i'm not happy.
i'm not happy at all."
11/06/06
"What is real? Does it mean having things that buzz inside of you and stick out like a handle?"
"Real isn't how you're made. It's things that happen to you when a child loves you for a long long time. Not just to play with, but REALLY loves you. Then you become real."
"Does it hurt?"
"Sometimes. When you're real, you don't mind being hurt."
"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up? Or bit by bit?"
"It doesn't happen all at once. You become. It takes a long time, that's why it doesn't happen to people who break easily, or who have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out, and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are real, you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand." - the velveteen rabbit
10/29/06
" i'm selfish sometimes
i acknowledge it
& i'm not proud of it.
but you know what?
no one else is looking out for me
so i guess i have to.
the only thing i can think of right now
is how i cant depend on anyone
& yeah thats upsetting
but the sooner i realize it
the less disappointed i'll be when people let me down."
10/23/06
"i wish i could just sink into something.
& know that everything is gonna be okay.
i dont wanna think constantly
& i dont want to worry anymore."
10/10/06
"i want to love someone so much that i forget what its like to not be in love."
10/02/06
"i wish i didnt always feel like an after thought.
or just so replaceable.
& forgettable.
& i know its selfish to say
but i do wanna be that person who someone, anyone cares about the most.
because all i ever feel is rejection
& like i'm not worth anything
& i want so much for that not to be true
but no ones really going out of their way to make me believe that."
9/25/06
"i care.
but clearly i've been doing that wrong.
so you need to tell me whether i should care more
or less.
cause i couldnt stop if i tried."
8/27/06
" all i wanna do is talk to him
& when i talk to him i wanna see him
& when i see him i wanna...do things to him
& its all very bad."
8/08/06
"so i've been going about it all wrong.
i think i was expecting happiness to fall out of the sky & land right in front of me
but then i'll just be waiting forever.
nope.
i've got to make myself happy."
7/11/06
"the instinct to run, to back away, or give up
to need, want, reach, steal
the feeling to always want more, & to take more
the loss of breath at the sight of a car accident
to drive by, never being able to feel satisfied
& to reject anyone who tries
& this is my life."
7/03/06
"i've never had the thought of someone make me so happy and so sad at the same time"
5/30/06
" is it weird that i find so much joy in other peoples unhappiness?
i like watching other peoples relationships fall apart.
i do it with a smile on my face.
i think i feed off of the disappointment of others just because i've gotten so used to the taste of my own."
5/29/06
hilare
"i'm melissa . i'm a junior & i party constantly . i like being sarcastic . my friends and family are my life . i like fireworks, holding hands, and carvel ice cream cake more than any person should . my biggest fears are [in no particular order] bugs, the dark, clowns, the gorillaz, and pissing off mel's mom . i hate girls who are obsessed with their boyfriends . i throw the word gay around like its my job . i pretty much pee my pants whenever it says that someone uses myspace for serious relationships . i criticize people (and myself) way too much but i'm okay with that . i hate friendstealers . for serious, get your own . if you're not touchy feely you might as well not even try to be friends with me . i love physical contact (shutup) . my profession is camerawhoring . seriously . do it with me sometime its fun . i'm not going to college cause i'm too stupid . i'm also not getting married cause no one likes me . if you can get me drunk you'd be pretty cool in my book . i pretend i can play the piano even though the only song i can actually play is brick by ben folds . but no joke, i rock at it (for the most part) . i'm probably the worst singer on the face of the planet, but i love to do it really loudly and obnoxiously . preferably in the car where you cant escape . i do not dance . unless its for kevins birthday and is something i choreographed myself . take me to concerts . it would really creep me out if a complete stranger knew my favorite color . i mean, i might as well be inviting them into my bedroom . i'd really like to undress jake epstein one day . iF yOu TyPe LiKe ThIs...i have to give you props cause that shit takes effort . dont talk to me like that though . i'll be forced to punch you as hard as i can in the face . i have 5 parents . i say fuck more than i should . i broke a mirror over the summer and i've been suffering the consequences ever since . actually i was pushed into a mirror by mel . that was real cool of you . i hate people who think they're better than everyone else . i dont care if you're smarter than me cause you're ugly . i have the best comebacks in the world . i watch jeopardy more than you . and i'm proud of it . dont think you're cool if you listen to music that no one else likes . thats cause it sucks . if i havent already, i will eventually have a hardcore conversation with you about old school nick . i dont get over people . friends or otherwise . i just pretend to . i dont trust anyone . roswell is probably the best show i've ever seen in my life . its an experience really . i miss stalking paul . i have no problem saying i told you so . pretty much cause people dont listen to me ever and i like to rub it in on the rare occasions when i'm right . i can smell oranges from miles away . i will die from either overdosing on advil or getting choked from my beads . if you have a death wish, call me in the morning . cause i will kill you . put your boobs away . no seriously, no one needs to see that . being in a relationship with me is probably the worst idea anyone could possibly have . i'm terrible at the whole girlfriend thing . i call myself gay a lot even though lesbians freak me out like crazy . and i dont mean girls who get with their friends because they think that'll make boys notice them . i mean hardcore, butch, hairy legged, deep voiced lesbians . i love when boys sleep over . i secretly like ashlee simpson . i have no desire to impress you . if you like me, you like me . if you dont...well thats too bad . i'll survive . i change my aim profile every wednesday and saturday . i'd rather be friends with guys than with girls cause they're less bitchy . i write emo things in my livejournal (www.livejournal.com/users/one_orange_Sock) . and regular things in my xanga (www.xanga.com/one_orange_sock) . if you think i complain to you too much shut up . and give jamie a medal . the only two people i've ever hated have the same birthday . and that really creeps me out . never ever use smiley faces when talking to me online/leaving me comment or something . it annoys the shit out of me . i've never built a snowman . i scare really easily . and i scream . the only thing i really want is a boy who likes eve 6 & third eye blind . thats not asking for too much is it? . i love meeting new people . but new people dont like meeting me cause i'm loud & stuff . i know that i wont have my high school friends forever . & it makes me cry because i love them with all of my heart . they're the most amazing people you could ever hope to meet . i'm pretty sure thats all you need to/more than you cared to know about me
like o-m-g get at me
noiseandkisses m"
5/19/06
"noiseandkisses m (2:54:45 PM): oh
noiseandkisses m (2:54:46 PM): my
noiseandkisses m (2:54:47 PM): god
noiseandkisses m (2:54:54 PM): this is the sound of me shooting myself in the face
Roxmisox123 (2:55:12 PM): i dont hear anything...
noiseandkisses m (2:55:20 PM): sorry cant talk
noiseandkisses m (2:55:29 PM): i've just taken a massive bullet wound to the head
noiseandkisses m (2:55:33 PM): and i'll be dying shortly"
5/14/06
"she'll take fighting chances
run head first into a brick wall
cause what doesnt kill her
makes it all just seem much closer."
4/09/06
"i'm happy.
like actually, legitimately happy
i almost forgot what it was like
& tomorrow something will probably send me into another downward spiral
but right here
right now
i'm happy"