The New Me
"Everyday is a new day; I'm thankful for every breath I take; I won't take it for granted (I won't take it for granted); So I learn from my mistakes; It's beyond my control sometimes it's best to let go; whatever happens in this lifetime; So I trust in love (so I trust in love); You have given me peace of mind;
I, I feel so alive; For the very first time; I can't deny you; I feel so alive; I, I feel so alive (so alive); For the very first time (for the very first time); And I think I can fly;
Sunshine upon my face (sunshine upon my face); A new song for me to sing; Tell the world how I feel inside (tell the world how I feel inside); Even though it might cost me everything; Now that I know this is beyond my control; Cause I could never turn my back away; Now that I see you (now that I see you); I can never look away;
I, I feel so alive; For the very first time; I can't deny you; I feel so alive; I, I feel so alive (so alive); For the very first time (for the very first time); And I think I can fly."
Maine was awesome! I had so much fun and did a lot of things that were out of character for me. The biggest being that I swam in the lake everyday I was there (minus the day we spent all day in Bar Harbor). I'm really proud of myself for overcoming that fear. We were also able to rent a kayak for the time I was there, which was great. I love to kayak, ever since the time in 8th grade when they took us kayaking in the Outer Banks I have loved it. And now, my parents are saying they'll buy me one of my own for my bday or xmas. Yippee!
A wind of change has been blowing in my life since I came back from Maine. I have been decluttering my life. Analyzing and getting rid of things I no longer need. I have also been living a very carefree life. Not having every minute of my life planned out and taking things with a grain of salt. I have to say, I like it. I no longer sweat the small stuff and I deal with the large stuff quickly and move on. I no longer hold on to things for days on end and keep analyzing and reanalyzing events. I have been dealing with them and dropping it. And if you have ever had to deal with me for a very long time, then you know how very big of a step forward this really is for me. I am also facing my silly fears and working on shortening that list. Hence the swimming in the lake. I can actually say that I am enjoying life.
Basically I had an awakening while in Maine. I realized that I didn't like the person starring back at me in the mirror. I realized that who I was was driving people away from me. And I can't say that I blame them. I have been especially difficult to live with the past month and a half (even longer for some people), and for that I am truly sorry. So, I'm changing it. I must say, I feel very grown up all the sudden. I also am liking the person starring back at me in the mirror more and more each day (not to sound narcissistic).
Thursday I have a hair appointment which will result in a new style and color to celebrate the new me. Also, it is my last year that I have to do something wild and crazy (by my definition) with my hair before having to enter the adult world in May. So I'm doing it. I've also been thinking about getting a tattoo.
I would like to thank all those who have stood by and helped me during this latest difficult time in my life. Even when I didn't want to hear what you were trying to tell me. Thank you for being persistent and for not abandoning me. You guys are truly wonderful and my saviors and I am forever indebted to you!
So now I would like to reintroduce myself to the world.
Hi, my name is Rachelle. Nice to meet you.
Thought of the Day
Don't sweat the petty things, and don't pet the sweaty things.
I, I feel so alive; For the very first time; I can't deny you; I feel so alive; I, I feel so alive (so alive); For the very first time (for the very first time); And I think I can fly;
Sunshine upon my face (sunshine upon my face); A new song for me to sing; Tell the world how I feel inside (tell the world how I feel inside); Even though it might cost me everything; Now that I know this is beyond my control; Cause I could never turn my back away; Now that I see you (now that I see you); I can never look away;
I, I feel so alive; For the very first time; I can't deny you; I feel so alive; I, I feel so alive (so alive); For the very first time (for the very first time); And I think I can fly."
Maine was awesome! I had so much fun and did a lot of things that were out of character for me. The biggest being that I swam in the lake everyday I was there (minus the day we spent all day in Bar Harbor). I'm really proud of myself for overcoming that fear. We were also able to rent a kayak for the time I was there, which was great. I love to kayak, ever since the time in 8th grade when they took us kayaking in the Outer Banks I have loved it. And now, my parents are saying they'll buy me one of my own for my bday or xmas. Yippee!
A wind of change has been blowing in my life since I came back from Maine. I have been decluttering my life. Analyzing and getting rid of things I no longer need. I have also been living a very carefree life. Not having every minute of my life planned out and taking things with a grain of salt. I have to say, I like it. I no longer sweat the small stuff and I deal with the large stuff quickly and move on. I no longer hold on to things for days on end and keep analyzing and reanalyzing events. I have been dealing with them and dropping it. And if you have ever had to deal with me for a very long time, then you know how very big of a step forward this really is for me. I am also facing my silly fears and working on shortening that list. Hence the swimming in the lake. I can actually say that I am enjoying life.
Basically I had an awakening while in Maine. I realized that I didn't like the person starring back at me in the mirror. I realized that who I was was driving people away from me. And I can't say that I blame them. I have been especially difficult to live with the past month and a half (even longer for some people), and for that I am truly sorry. So, I'm changing it. I must say, I feel very grown up all the sudden. I also am liking the person starring back at me in the mirror more and more each day (not to sound narcissistic).
Thursday I have a hair appointment which will result in a new style and color to celebrate the new me. Also, it is my last year that I have to do something wild and crazy (by my definition) with my hair before having to enter the adult world in May. So I'm doing it. I've also been thinking about getting a tattoo.
I would like to thank all those who have stood by and helped me during this latest difficult time in my life. Even when I didn't want to hear what you were trying to tell me. Thank you for being persistent and for not abandoning me. You guys are truly wonderful and my saviors and I am forever indebted to you!
So now I would like to reintroduce myself to the world.
Hi, my name is Rachelle. Nice to meet you.
Thought of the Day
Don't sweat the petty things, and don't pet the sweaty things.